134. Movie Time

 

*Movie time*

Movie is enjoyment source 

Am I a movie ? Yes of course 

There is a pattern I observe

My funny bones, In a platter I serve 

I was popular in school college 

As was free spirited without a baggage 

When I was happy, people were around 

But when needed them I found 

Myself alone in crowd 

One who have tasted appreciation

Tends to seek validation 

I was seeking constant relevance 

My jovial nature would get me joy in abundance 

After my parents exited my story 

Here started my worry

And in order to make self fine

Started socialising this time 

I see in myself a pattern of need

Constant validation to feed

I tried portraying self as funny billy

Not realising I was losing respect and was taken silly 

Over my jokes someone can laugh 

But when in need,I see their presence with heart half 

Suppose if I have no more impactful array 

And still if I choose  to share worry 

Society doesn't find the movie entertaining

And they switch channel for joy attaining 

I understood what being used looked at it's best

To get information, entertainment and be Catalyst 

In my movie I am my hero and creative lead 

I will ensure to not anymore entertain creepers and feed

My energy shouldn't drain 

On people who treat me a movie in vain

I am although my lead character dent

But should not be a source of others entertainment 

Starting of the story I can't change 

But I will script the climax in unique range 

Let me focus on acting

Let God be directing 

So that I work on the script that he has given 

And be focussed and duty driven 

Ofcourse my movie should have comic element

My family and self to be happy intent 

But I shouldn't let my emotions be open for all odd

It's a treasure to be preserved and shared with God 

My movie is straight forward 

Me spicing up too much looks absurd

Self respect and happiness within is the key fit

In my eyes my own movie should be a super hit 

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

14-1-2025

Amazing 😍  I loved the idea of becoming a movie itself in the poem. I loved the line questioning "Am I movie?, yes of course ' that was deeply introspective as if reflecting on self. Adding god as a director is a beautiful divine touch in movie of our life. I also loved the line, 'after my parents exited my story, here started my worry', it was so relatable. And the line, 'script has given...' is so deep which makes us to think about our life script which is given and what should we do as our duty. Its eye opener. Keep sharing ❤️

Superb❤️

I appreciate your creativity ❤️

The beautifully woven emotions highlighted the experience of overcoming societal pressures and finding one's true identity. Described as a journey of a man who was initially known for his cheerful nature, but slowly gets trapped in a quest for validation and constant external approval. Metaphorically comparing him to a "movie", highlighting how his entertaining personality became a source of entertainment for others, leading to a feeling of being used and a gradual erosion of self-esteem. 

Through introspection and a new understanding of his worth, he resolves to prioritise his happiness and authenticity, writing a new story where self-esteem and inner fulfilment take centre stage. This insightful piece is commendable.❤️

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133.Venting out

 Venting out 

Earlier when used to write poetry mine 

Always thought to align rhyme

I was accustomed to keep in general line 

As too much expression in public platform is not fine 

Slowly I expressed less

As my emotions play mess

Today as I felt low

Lack of focus and slow

Sometimes even a silly matter bother

I know I should focus on priority things rather 

Example I posted a video in family group 

Noone reacted thus came in my toxic troop 

Someone ignored me or if didn't match my tone 

To deviate mind I kept on browsing phone 

I didn't feel at peace 

Why do I think I am unhealed and still in piece ?

I am grateful and do count on my blessing

Then why at times loneliness comes hissing 

I was in verge of drenching in negative thought

Thus I started writing down without another thought 

The silliness bothering me aren't worth

I should wash them off just like a sticky dirt

Tears just flow for no reason

I shouldn't give my lethargy a boost each season 

Many things I should take easy 

I should be productive and be busy

With this self talk with gratitude I bow 

Poetry is helping me come out of my phase low

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

3 Jan 2025

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Fabulous 🔥

Beautifully depicted internal struggles, honestly reflected on the suppression of emotions, the effect of social media on self-esteem and the struggle with negative thoughts. Battling with feelings of loneliness and a tendency to get caught up in trivial matters, accepted writing as a blessing. The act of writing itself is a cathartic experience, helping one process their emotions and emerge from a low phase.🔥

Highlighted the power of self-reflection and creative expression in dealing with internal struggles and emotional challenges, is commendable 🔥

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132.Konkani poem

 Tigele msg ayile makka

Sangunu msg Kari takka 

Tee- Tanni vichaarnu sangtha Kai 

Ammi call korche samm Nai

 

Me -Chelle Ammak call Kari 

Maagiri migele ullai pot bhari 

Me - itte goh haav kasa monche 

Tumgel jaavnanthu haav nai nonche

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Tikka bhaari oori Assa pakka

Chekkek msg kelle ve Akka

Itte goh tukka atta hataa

Mayyen sangtaana ashil ve sankata

Tugel feminism asshile bhaari

Apan shikkun kaam korka ,Tari Kari 

Vardik jalle tashhi baabu korka nave 

Taavali kaam sodka nave 

Tari itte makka msg koruk sangta tuva

Tugel aan ammale ekkichi dhuva

Arrangement Kari tanka

Apnal vairi depend kornakka 

Khanche Chellek guna polonu jaitha mana ki

Mukavaile plan kornu tasal arrangement chooki 

Tugele sansaaru polono ghe , yeah tangi akka

Baggage ghevnu bhonakka

Tukka taagel ammale ullochak kasa problem 

Internally takka convince korche nai samm 

Arrange marriage set up yein 

Feminism hanga chalna ghe 

Ekka jibben donni ullonakka 

Ek pati mantha kaam karta , aaek pati migel katir ullai akka

Konakai judge korche nai, varkik khelu nai 

Practically lekkuka life decision yeah 

Ardaari course solla teene ,Vai !

Para barsartas Bangaloraa training Kai 

Haav malle doni doniri payi darvarnakka 

Mann divnu kaam Kari , gadi gadi Decision change kornakka

Samaachi bhajjun aayli tikka 

Tigel pre plans gothas makka !!

11 jan 25

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131.Welcoming 2025

 Welcoming 2025-Manifestations for new year.

Improved version of me 

New perspective to see

Positive mind, exercise is stress releaser

Prioritize self,not to be people pleaser

Faith in God ,more of self belief 

Focus on priority task & hobby for relief 

To be duty bound &enjoy work to full 

To explore self potential & develop new skill

To avoid people who does energy drain

And keep doing activities where I sharpen my brain 

Giving a break to studies has been too long

I will re-start and come out strong 

Journalling, exercise will be consistent life's part

Revisiting my forgotten skills and art 

To keep my parents principles intact 

To not make assumptions and accept fact

I am my improved version in 2025

I will put forth my opinion without cry

The street chaps my parents fed will be good

God will protect them and arrange them food 

My worries are replaced by productivity 

Knowledge takes over my sensitivity 

I make mark in my life and be glee 

My parents are blessing and are proud of me 

My job this year will be permanent and no more shabby

God will grace me this year with a baby 

My grey hair strand which started popping 

I gracefully accept them hoping 

That experience teaches me not to repeat same mistake 

I learn to grow, improve and never be fake 

Leaving behind my baggage of past if weren't great 

but take lessons imbibed through my fate

My parents role in this play is over 

New character will be introduced to love shower

Will enjoy good time travel mine 

Accompanying spouse with smile and shine 

Wishing, welcoming 2025 and manifesting 

Clarity in thoughts and journey ahead interesting!!!

Happy New year dears

Let's say cheese, cheers!!

✍️©️ Priyanka Kamath

30-12-2024

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Fabulous🔥

Beautifully written aspirations and hopes for the new year, along with a desire for self-improvement, are packed with positive affirmations, and focus on personal growth, mental well-being, and fulfilling your full potential.Prioritised oneself, developing a positive mindset and breaking free from limiting beliefs are outlined as goals. A deep sense of gratitude towards parents and a strong faith in God are also reflected🔥

A heartfelt expression of optimism and a commitment to creating a fulfilling and meaningful life in the coming year.🔥

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130.Reflections on Christmas *

 

*Reflections on Christmas *

Christmas is a festival of joy. Gift used to be main area of focus. Slowly I began to be absorbed in peer pressure to gift my random colleague a certain value item. This year I didn't participate in secret Santa because I didn't want to do it for the sake of it. Although I would also receive one in return but I can get something for self than hoarding stuff which I may not use. I rather feel great joy in feeding street animals. 

I was missing my parents a lot since my dad used to enjoy all festival .As a tribute I made a little video in their memory where I had captured little moments and posted in my social media. I have stopped bothering about strangers and their thoughts . If writing a poem ,making a reel makes me fine then my parents up there would also feel the joy.

I have stopped interfering in others life. I used to earlier engross in gossips. But now I have started to focus on my self-improvement. Letting go is what I am practicing. 

Office front I try as much to not show my emotions, however at times I still do feel anxious. I am doing my prayers regularly so that almighty protect me and remove any baggage if any.

I am trying to understand my own self .When I see mirror, I can only see a soul who has tried her best, cried for the loses faced, stood up and reached so far.

 As year end approaches I am cleaning up my mess in home , body , mind ,soul if absorbed with low energy content.

The gist of the reflection I see this festive season is self love to core and to believe in myself a little more .

✍️Priyanka kamath

27-12-2024

129.Mist of veil

 

Mist of veil

A family willing to adopt my little bird 

Based on the goodwill I had 

But the bird doesn't want to be in nest 

Wishing well for her has put me to sickle of test 

Bird doesn't want to adjust in new home

I am guilty of giving family the hope 

The bird wants to roam around free

Doesn't wish to be in shelter of tree

The new family is kind 

I wish a genuinely happy bird they find

My bird is aged but not matured flame 

Consequence ahead for me to be a person to blame 

I wish well for new family as well as bird 

Directly conveying would be absurd 

A step ahead is pit 

Backward door is shut

 I am not sure how to express

Without conveying I am feeling in stress

Covering a mist of veil in form of poem to the reality check

For new family to make themselves requisite background checks

©️ Priyanka Kamath 

17-12-2024

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Superb🔥

The internal conflict is very well depicted giving a new perspective to the given topic. Beautifully expressed the different forms of emotions and ends with a beautiful message🔥

Well-done🔥

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@⁨Priyanka Kamath⁩

128.Moonlight Rendezvous

 

*Moonlight Rendezvous*

As a daughter, my days first thought

Was to check about my parents whereabout

Seems a part of me is taken away 

In heaven, as they made their way 

But I do feel their essence diverse 

Is still felt in this universe 

As I see the moon and starry night 

In calmness of sky, I visualise their sight

I believe my each emotion reaches them

My parents are always my priceless gem

Calling parents multiple times was indeed a blessing in row

I continue to connect with them under moonlight Rendezvous 

I wonder what can I do for them as a tribute?

Well, I cant certainly sow a bitter fruit 

When I say bitter fruit,it implies 

Consequences by disobeying the right advise 

Dear Amma Aanu , under moonlights calm gaze

Bless me to let go of my toxic ways

I will connect to you more

When I am honest to myself at core 

I offer my sincere apology heartfull

If I was ever to you hurtful 

You constantly guided me my way 

Now I should walk the path that lay 

Just how moon keep changing it's size

Keep your culture alive in me and rise

I should negate my vice

And grow more wise

Furthermore, my parents have nothing more to lose 

Upto me on how I craft my karmic 

account and path choose 

I will never forget the good principles my parents gave 

Will walk in the path of righteous duty and be brave 

Moon in all forms gives me glimpse fresh 

I speak to my parents via universe each day to express

That thanks for keeping them alive in each gift of your

I feel them in air , water , fire , sky ,earth pure 

After losing mom, I could see her in moon 

Now I see dad in polar star reaching mom soon 

I have so much to speak 

Also your advise I seek 

In form of moon you will listen to me at all age 

Please also relieve me from any baggage 

Let's catch up each night 

Pleas

e put me to sleep and hug me tight

©️ Priyanka Kamath

09-12-2024

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Magnificent ❤️

Beautifully woven the power of love and remembrance even after death. Expressed the power of love and lost with the feelings of remembering the deceased parents and being connected to them through night sky.Also highlighted the desire to be a good person and live a good life to honor of their memory and asked them to guide and help to overcome challenges.❤️

Well-articulated❤️

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