I turned 33 on 7th of this month. Two years back I was in mangalore with my mom. And last year was my first one without her. So I decided to do something special for me this time. I had checked reels on few freebies for the birthday girl. Like a kayaking offered in ignite waters, free donut when purchased a beverage etc. It was a Sunday and both of us had a holiday so he planned a fancy lunch for me . I couldn't stay back midnight as was sleepy. So the very next day as I open my message I see a beautiful gift from Sky. He had got two big cakes in his place with my name written on it. When I checked with him how would he complete this cake , he mentioned that he would give away to orphanage for children. I was moved by this gesture. I had prepared bread omelette for breakfast. Before that had freshend up and offered my prayers to God. I shouldn't have booked a morning slot for the water paddling. As the weather in Dubai is too heated up . Also I was trying to kayak in individual boat for the first time. In April we had a team event where in Hatta I have done donut rowing which means it is less effort kayaking where we could enjoy rowing with team. Here there was chances of the light weighted boat to submerge in water so I was asked in advance if I knew to swim and also opted for a life jacket. I had worn jeans and a kurtham Although carried swimming suit too but I didn't anticipate the water to come over me. To be honest I did row but it wasn't a magical experience considering the humidity was too much and evenings would be cooler. Then we went home to change and relax a bit at home. It was afternoon already and we went to city centre maeisuem which is near to my place to have a good lunch. First I happen to visit the freebies list available in the store to grab them. Out of these ,I managed to grab a freebie in Tim Horton.I purchased a lavender cooler beverage ( Cost is 19 AEd ,since I had few points ,I was asked to pay only 16. With this I got a free donut. I chose KitKat one . It actually costed 8. But since was free so enjoyed it. By the way kayaking was also a part of Freebie for me. I would have regretted if I had to pay 75 AEd since it was not that worth. We went to Gazebo. We had a Zomato coupen for 30 percent off provided we make a minimum bill of 100 AEd. So after crafting my homework carefully we ordered chicken biryani and curry with butter rotis. The bill came up to 77 which represents my birthday too..We went to carefour to get weekly groceries. Next day I had office and Apoleena took me out for lunch in More.we had Thai green chicken with rice and in desert took a chocolate ice cream. Mara had also come to meet team so distributed chocolate as well to my former team. Thank for for a beautiful day!
She then reached out to me saying that she can disconnect with him if that hurts me .so I told her that I can't devote time to listen to her and advise all the time . So let her chill ,enjoy his care , attention,love.. after all all he needed was her. May be I was trying to hold him like a sand . I was making sure I don't give him stress by being too clingy with my sad stories. But he loves the toxicity and his energy definitely matches with her so he chose her over me and said he only needs her.
Well, the next day when I messaged he was trying to be as restricted as possible.. like if I say how are you .his response is how are you . If I say I am fine, he says ok..it's not the way he responded to me usually and then when I ask why he changed,he says all is in my mind.
I agree I am possessive. But even after understanding that showing me off the love towards her in group was too much. I felt all was done just to get a reaction out of me also during the time I was upset here. She is right that I have never understood either him or her. I am a mean selfish lady .
Irrespective of his reaction to my newsletter comment in group I am continuing to do that because I need him although all he need is only her.
Let me come back to my birthday. Next day I had office and Apoleena took me out for lunch in More.we had Thai green chicken with rice and in desert took a chocolate ice cream.
Mara had also come to meet team so distributed chocolate as well to my former team.
If sky reads my email fully , he may find me too insecure. But it's my feelings. I own them. He is good to communicate.he is sweet but too much sweetness is not good for health. So his weekly communication would be enough for me to sustain the entire week. Let him have his share of happiness with his only one. Afterall she is my sister and if she is been treated as a princess then she deserves it .
I am already a queen so i let my princess enjoy this' phase with my prince ( her prince ) !!!
Next Friday will send across my third newsletter.turned 33 on 7th of this month. Two years back I was in mangalore with my mom. And last year was my first one without her. So I decided to do something special for me this time. I had checked reels on few freebies for the birthday girl. Like a kayaking offered in ignite waters, free donut when purchased a beverage etc. It was a Sunday and both of us had a holiday so he planned a fancy lunch for me . I couldn't stay back midnight as was sleepy. So the very next day as I open my message I see a beautiful gift from Sky. He had got two big cakes in his place with my name written on it. When I checked with him how would he complete this cake , he mentioned that he would give away to orphanage for children. I was moved by this gesture. I had prepared bread omelette for breakfast. Before that had freshend up and offered my prayers to God. I shouldn't have booked a morning slot for the water paddling. As the weather in Dubai is too heated up . Also I was trying to kayak in individual boat for the first time. In April we had a team event where in Hatta Iturned 33 on 7th of this month. Two years back I was in mangalore with my mom. And last year was my first one without her. So I decided to do something special for me this time. I had checked reels on few freebies for the birthday girl. Like a kayaking offered in ignite waters, free donut when purchased a beverage etc. It was a Sunday and both of us had a holiday so he planned a fancy lunch for me . I couldn't stay back midnight as was sleepy. So the very next day as I open my message I see a beautiful gift from Sky. He had got two big cakes in his place with my name written on it. When I checked with him how would he complete this cake , he mentioned that he would give away to orphanage for children. I was moved by this gesture. I had prepared bread omelette for breakfast. Before that had freshend up and offered my prayers to God. I shouldn't have booked a morning slot for the water paddling. As the weather in Dubai is too heated up . Also I was trying to kayak in individual boat for the first time. In April we had a team event where in Hatta I have done donut rowing which means it is less effort kayaking where we could enjoy rowing with team. Here there was chances of the light weighted boat to submerge in water so I was asked in advance if I knew to swim and also opted for a life jacket. I had worn jeans and a kurtham Although carried swimming suit too but I didn't anticipate the water to come over me. To be honest I did row but it wasn't a magical experience considering the humidity was too much and evenings would be cooler. Then we went home to change and relax a bit at home. It was afternoon already and we went to city centre maeisuem which is near to my place to have a good lunch. First I happen to visit the freebies list available in the store to grab them. Out of these ,I managed to grab a freebie in Tim Horton.I purchased a lavender cooler beverage ( Cost is 19 AEd ,since I had few points ,I was asked to pay only 16. With this I got a free donut. I chose KitKat one . It actually costed 8. But since was free so enjoyed it. By the way kayaking was also a part of Freebie for me. I would have regretted if I had to pay 75 AEd since it was not that worth. We went to Gazebo. We had a Zomato coupen for 30 percent off provided we make a minimum bill of 100 AEd. So after crafting my homework carefully we ordered chicken biryani and curry with butter rotis. The bill came up to 77 which represents my birthday too..We went to carefour to get weekly groceries. And evening I prepared for the next day and created a new group Awesome Threesome with my cousin and sky which sadly came to a hault yesterday. I really like sky around me .He is my happy space. I even sext with him and I can discuss anything and everything to him. However this is the second time that is happening that I felt left out. This time I didn't manipulate. I just felt to leave the group . When he sexted me the last time it was a abusive one and a rough sex where we used the term Raand which means a prostitute. Next day even he asked if we went overboard. But then it was something I extremely loved so I didn't think deep because I enjoyed to the core. I felt we both needed each other. But he just needed her. It's me who was needy for his love and attention . Every time I reach out to him and he doesn't even attempt to get back to me. He mentioned to me earlier that my cousin is not like me. Means she would keep her respect intact and not give herself to him so easily. In other way the Raand is correctly justifying me. That I was ready to give him even even I am in wedlock .In the group I had mentioned to him that please keep tuning for my birthday newsletter. But he didn't respond. However if she posted anything he would be proactive. I ignored and tried to communicate with him on things we relate. But then she was not involving in these conversation rather was texting him separately. When I would write anything in group ,on her behalf he would respond. She wouldn't even get back to me . Everyone has their opinion and when I shared mine, the response was a bit rude. Even if she was upset she didn't connect to me rather discussed about me to him. Earlier too I had seen that she has hid her DP , she isn't communicating to me and this strong response was hard on me. Moreover sky kept supporting her. Previous to last evening I was upset and I didn't want to share the negativity to others so I told sky that he is my happy space and the issue is regarding my dad so I will handle it. I logged off early. The next day ( yesterday) I see there isn't the regular good morning msg. Neither my cousin checked with me if I was ok. And I see intense msg from sky in the group stating that he needs only her .he stresses on the word 'only you '! Either he can have this close ended communication to her in person that showing his love in the group. When I sext him ,it's because I feel for him. Neither him nor me are toys here. So he should have been sensible with his actions. And she is also reciprocating well and then telling me that she can't control his actions. The group was namesake. Anyways the real conversation was one to one . And I was feeling hurt and ignored by both ends.
She then reached out to me saying that she can disconnect with him if that hurts me .so I told her that I can't devote time to listen to her and advise all the time . So let her chill ,enjoy his care , attention,love.. after all all he needed was her. May be I was trying to hold him like a sand . I was making sure I don't give him stress by being too clingy with my sad stories. But he loves the toxicity and his energy definitely matches with her so he chose her over me and said he only needs her.
Well, the next day when I messaged he was trying to be as restricted as possible.. like if I say how are you .his response is how are you . If I say I am fine, he says ok..it's not the way he responded to me usually and then when I ask why he changed,he says all is in my mind.
I agree I am possessive. But even after understanding that showing me off the love towards her in group was too much. I felt all was done just to get a reaction out of me also during the time I was upset here. She is right that I have never understood either him or her. I am a mean selfish lady .
Irrespective of his reaction to my newsletter comment in group I am continuing to do that because I need him although all he need is only her.
Let me come back to my birthday. Next day I had office and Apoleena took me out for lunch in More.we had Thai green chicken with rice and in desert took a chocolate ice cream.
Mara had also come to meet team so distributed chocolate as well to my former team.
If sky reads my email fully , he may find me too insecure. But it's my feelings. I own them. He is good to communicate.he is sweet but too much sweetness is not good for health. So his weekly communication would be enough for me to sustain the entire week. Let him have his share of happiness with his only one. Afterall she is my sister and if she is been treated as a princess then she deserves it .
I am already a queen so i let my princess enjoy this' phase with my prince ( her prince ) !!!
Next Friday will send across my third newsletter. have done donut rowing which means it is less effort kayaking where we could enjoy rowing with team. Here there was chances of the light weighted boat to submerge in water so I was asked in advance if I knew to swim and also opted for a life jacket. I had worn jeans and a kurtham Although carried swimming suit too but I didn't anticipate the water to come over me. To be honest I did row but it wasn't a magical experience considering the humidity was too much and evenings would be cooler. Then we went home to change and relax a bit at home. It was afternoon already and we went to city centre maeisuem which is near to my place to have a good lunch. First I happen to visit the freebies list available in the store to grab them. Out of these ,I managed to grab a freebie in Tim Horton.I purchased a lavender cooler beverage ( Cost is 19 AEd ,since I had few points ,I was asked to pay only 16. With this I got a free donut. I chose KitKat one . It actually costed 8. But since was free so enjoyed it. By the way kayaking was also a part of Freebie for me. I would have regretted if I had to pay 75 AEd since it was not that worth. We went to Gazebo. We had a Zomato coupen for 30 percent off provided we make a minimum bill of 100 AEd. So after crafting my homework carefully we ordered chicken biryani and curry with butter rotis. The bill came up to 77 which represents my birthday too..We went to carefour to get weekly groceries. And evening I prepared for the next day and created a new group Awesome Threesome with my cousin and sky which sadly came to a hault yesterday. I really like sky around me .He is my happy space. I even sext with him and I can discuss anything and everything to him. However this is the second time that is happening that I felt left out. This time I didn't manipulate. I just felt to leave the group . When he sexted me the last time it was a abusive one and a rough sex where we used the term Raand which means a prostitute. Next day even he asked if we went overboard. But then it was something I extremely loved so I didn't think deep because I enjoyed to the core. I felt we both needed each other. But he just needed her. It's me who was needy for his love and attention . Every time I reach out to him and he doesn't even attempt to get back to me. He mentioned to me earlier that my cousin is not like me. Means she would keep her respect intact and not give herself to him so easily. In other way the Raand is correctly justifying me. That I was ready to give him even even I am in wedlock .In the group I had mentioned to him that please keep tuning for my birthday newsletter. But he didn't respond. However if she posted anything he would be proactive. I ignored and tried to communicate with him on things we relate. But then she was not involving in these conversation rather was texting him separately. When I would write anything in group ,on her behalf he would respond. She wouldn't even get back to me . Everyone has their opinion and when I shared mine, the response was a bit rude. Even if she was upset she didn't connect to me rather discussed about me to him. Earlier too I had seen that she has hid her DP , she isn't communicating to me and this strong response was hard on me. Moreover sky kept supporting her. Previous to last evening I was upset and I didn't want to share the negativity to others so I told sky that he is my happy space and the issue is regarding my dad so I will handle it. I logged off early. The next day ( yesterday) I see there isn't the regular good morning msg. Neither my cousin checked with me if I was ok. And I see intense msg from sky in the group stating that he needs only her .he stresses on the word 'only you '! Either he can have this close ended communication to her in person that showing his love in the group. When I sext him ,it's because I feel for him. Neither him nor me are toys here. So he should have been sensible with his actions. And she is also reciprocating well and then telling me that she can't control his actions. The group was namesake. Anyways the real conversation was one to one . And I was feeling hurt and ignored by both ends.
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