148. Cheek ek dard ki daastan anthology/title -Lame Office stories with moral of pain and gain

Same article  Titled guild of being innocent  and welcome from outside door posted in blog. This is a modified version.

Guilt of being innocent/ welcome from outside door combined to make Cheek ek dard ki daastan 

Lame Office stories with moral of pain and gain

The previous department I worked was kinda toxic 

It was best time for me to leave than feel sick.

But this decision was made not by me, but my boss 

And her removing me from office group took my feelings to toss...

I felt bad not because I wasn't valued in front of my peers

But expected an acknowledgement for being with her for so many years..

My innocence was my expression of feeling

Even after conveying,my mind was not healing

I transferred her this burden of guilt 

Although my feeling was pure and innocent...

She must have felt

What I meant 

This day she calls me in pantry 

To share with me her birthday pastry 

I could have easily avoided her and said no 

But earlier it was me who was desperate for my presence to show..

What goes around comes around 

And if she is being nice,then I am too bound 

I was guilty of making her feel sorry for me

I accepted her invite gracefully 

I should have definitely missed to attend 

However I had started ,so had to end..

At times I feel, I was yearning for her validation 

But when it came true ,I revisited my manifestation

There is a fine line in being innocent and fool

Mostly I cross this line ,but it's cool..

Above instance was when I was in Audit beat

Then while I worked in tax and same thing repeat

But now I didn't feel the instance as bitter 

As last experience helped me to handle this situation better 

Why should I even bother this scene 

Dwelling upon hurtful event only intensifies pain 

Focus should be now to be productive and knowledge to gain 

Some people we meet are chapter in book

Zoom out and preview they have an outlook 

Instead of seeing it like she is removed and required no more 

Why not look like welcoming from outside door

Turn this page on and see new chapter 

All stories do end with happily ever after 

Even if not we can make it with a smile 

Forgetting the bad and stepping a mille

These petty things I cried over as if it was vital 

With time these instances do look trivial 

Penning down this instance of being innocently guilty I realise

As long as I don't repeat my mistake,I am wise!!!

©️ Priyanka Kamath ✍️ 

24 March 2025

Bio 

Poetry is a way of expressing Priyanka's experience and stories.Life is a learning institution and sharing it in the form of write up is a healing process. She dedicates her work to her dear parents