214 b version self reflection exercise

 Self Reflection exercise*

1. What am I holding in right now?

Well, it's the anticipation of fruit for the seed I sow

I have at times assumed things and added tail

 When fact is twisted, the truth seems pale

A peer trying hard to dig errors in me just to prove

After having reality check, still being cordial is the right thing to do 

Service line lead ,pointing out as if major fault 

speaking out will seem rude and it's a proven fact 

2. ⁠What do I need, but haven't said out loud?

Well, Seeking validation looks very surface level need

But when comes from right person,seems like a scrumptious feed 

Parents presence and  conversation with them around 

A small corner within me which needs pleasure profound 

3. ⁠When was the last time I felt peace?

Well, it's today when I did my duty with utmost love and ease 

And followed my exercise routine in fresh breeze 

Believing that my conversation are listened and reciprocated in universe

Peace is always in spending time with my spouse

4. ⁠What would I do if I felt 10% braver?

Well,I would not do things as if it's a favour 

I would be strict and upfront to face any taunt 

And shortcomings be turned into my strength and wouldn't hesitate to flaunt 

Confronting anything wrong that happens to me without tear

Believing in myself a little more and fighting fear

5. ⁠Who am I when no one is watching?

 Well, Two faces within me when no one is seeing 

The real me has shade of  manipulative being 

A bit selfish to hoard stuff for my dears petty  

Diverting mind towards toxic ways when unable to face reality 

I understand my vulnerabilities and working on same 

Felt lighter and grateful for this exercise without feeling shame 

Self reflection:-

These prompts definitely gave clarity on thought process

Takeaway is to leave baggages and start fresh  !!!

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath

26 June 2025

Regards,

Priyanka Kamath

215- नृत्य प्राथना।। निर्गुण भजन

दिवंगत श्री मंजुनाथ वेंकटरमण कामत जी इस साल अपनी शताब्दी मना रहे होते। इस पर्व पर उनकी पोती प्रियंका की तरफ से एक कोशिश कि उनकी लिखी निर्गुण भजन पब्लिश हो पाए। प्रियंका ने कभी अपनी नानी जी श्रीमती जाह्नवी उर्फ शारदा कामत को नहीं देखा पर एक प्राथना अपनी मां श्रीमती गोमती कामत से सुनकर पुस्तक में लिखा रखा था।कोंकणी भाषा में लिखी यह प्राथना ,हिंदी से मेल खाती हैं । पर जहां जरूरत हो ,हिंदी में अनुवाद किया गया है । इस एंथोलॉजी के मूलक अपने नाना नानी को भाव पूर्ण श्रृद्धांजलि देकर अपनी एक लौटी जमा पूंजी प्रस्तुत करा गया है। पोएटिक पब्लिकेशंस को अनेक आभार की आपके द्वारा उन आत्मा को संतुष्टि दे पा रही हूं जिनका कोई अवशेष अब न रहा। श्री विट्ठल निर्गुण निराकार है और अपनी कृपा दृष्टि हम सब पर बनाए रखे , यही मनोकामना है। श्री विट्ठल,हरि विट्ठल🙏

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निर्गुण भजन

किस विध ध्यान करूं

कैसे चित्त एकाग्र करूं

नाम जप में एकाग्र करे तो

नाम तो एक नहीं है

शुभ स्मरणीय अनेक नाम को

एक चित्त में लाना है

किस विध ध्यान करूं

कैसे चित्त एकाग्र करूं

रूप का चिंता करे नयन में 

रूप रहेगा कैसे

जब वह विश्वाम भरी रहता है

निराकार तुम कैसे

किस विध ध्यान करूं

कैसे चित्त एकाग्र करूं

एक चित्त में गुण गाने को

अगणित गुणयुत तुम हो

सब गुण कैसे मनन करूं

तुम निर्गुण कहलाते हो

किस विध ध्यान करूं

कैसे चित्त एकाग्र करूं

सभी नाम में,सभी रूप में

तुम हो सब सदगुन में 

लेकिन जब तक एक चित्त नहीं

एक भी नहीं है मन में

किस विध ध्यान करूं

कैसे चित्त एकाग्र करूं

सागर समान चित्त मुझे दो

देख सकू में जिसमें 

सच्चिदानंद का सब गुण रूप को

सभी महामाया में 

किस विध ध्यान करूं

कैसे चित्त एकाग्र करूं।

   

✍️©️ श्री मंजुनाथ वेंकटरमण कामत

****** नित्य प्राथना

सर्वेश्वर 

सर्वज्ञ 

सर्वव्यापक

सर्वांतर्यामी

श्रीतिकर्ता

अभय

अनादि

अनुपम

अजर

अमर

न्यायकारी

नित्य

पवित्र

निराकार

निर्विकार

कृपापूर्ण

ॐ देवा भक्तवत्सल प्रभु

वाईट विचार(गलत विचार)

वाईट जानाले सहवास ( गलत लोगोंको सहवास) 

वाईट क्रियाटुकुनू ( गलत कर्मों से ) 

दूर कॉर्न ( दूर करके) 

योग्य जीवन कोचे तशी कॉर्न दी देवा( योग्य जीवन बनाकर रखना देवा)!

द्वारा - जाह्नवी उर्फ़ शरादा कामत अतः 

गोमती कामत

214- Self reflection exercise

 *Self Reflection exercise*

Addressing Journaling prompt when I feel lost

 If not checked ,will have to bear a heavy cost 

1. What am I holding in right now?

Well, it's the anticipation of fruit for the seed I sow

I have at times assumed things and added tail

 When fact is twisted, the truth seems pale

I don't like how my peer is trying hard to dig errors in me - I can't undo 

Although I know the reality, being cordial is the right thing to do 

I felt bad on how the service line lead ,pointed out on me as if it was my fault 

If I speak it would be rude so I kept quiet as no alt

2. ⁠What do I need, but haven't said out loud?

Well, I need my parents back and conversation with them around 

I need to have more clarity on my thought process

I need to leave all my baggage and start fresh  

3. ⁠When was the last time I felt peace?

Well, When I do my duty with utmost love and ease 

And follow my exercise routine in fresh breeze 

Believing that my conversation are listened and reciprocated in universe

Peace is also in spending time with my spouse

4. ⁠What would I do if I felt 10% braver?

Well,I would not do things as if it's a favour 

I would be strict and upfront on face to any taunt 

And my shortcomings be turned into my strength and wouldn't hesitate to flaunt 

I would confront the office lead and express that he shouldn't have escalated on this 

I should be brave enough to not shed tear and confident tone, matter be dismiss 

5. ⁠Who am I when no one is watching?

 Well,Within me possess two faces , and when no one is seeing 

The real me is very manipulative being 

I know my traits and I am working on same 

I felt lighter and grateful for this exercise to write down without feeling shame !!

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath

26 June 2025

Regards,

Priyanka Kamath

214- Father Stardust

 *Father : Stardust*

Review 

Excellent ❤️

Beautifully portrayed a deeply touching expression of grief, love, and enduring connection. The central metaphor of the universe as a “magazine” providing updates on departed parents is incredibly creative and offers a unique perspective on maintaining a bond beyond life. The tears as “stardust” and a “reward” for connecting with loved ones is particularly poignant and beautiful. ❤️

Keep writing 

Keep exploring your unique voice❤️

Moon is near though appears far

Sun is my favourite star 

Both in moon and sun I see my parents face 

Their presence in universe helps me overcome the sad phase 

Just as we get magazine on movie stars names star dust 

I hope universe also releases a daily magazine first 

It would contain colorful pages on what my parents are doing each day 

And a column on point of view they convey

There is also a postal address written in the last page of star dust 

And the sitting area is piled with my letters outburst 

They have all the time to read them through and respond 

And one by one they would post article in the magazine which I am very fond 

The star dust also includes a column for their annual leaves pace 

Each of the soul put forth which home they would next grace 

It's decided on our mental state of we are sad or delighted 

They don't come uninvited 

When they come they definitely leave a imprint that last

And upon return they will write down their experience in star dust

My prayers are not confined to closed walls of home 

They are in universe and their presence never makes me feel alone 

At times when I weep 

They caress me over my sleep 

All this when I mention on letter 

God ensures it's a part of the newsletter 

The magazine is two sided and reading it is fun 

I can although access them it needs password to open

Password of honesty, faith and love and honest wishes 

My prayers God do addresses

Special mention of the newsletter gets a price to experience dust of the star 

When I experience tears when remembering parents it means my thoughts reach them so far 

And it's a symbol of my award

Tears through stars dust as reward

Nothing to be worried when I shed tear

It means my dear ones are near by - nothing to fear!!!

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath 

24 June 2025 

213. Gratefulness - Anthology mans life is gift of god

 *Gratefulness* 

Feedback -This heartfelt piece beautifully captures the challenges of balancing work and home life. Your raw honesty and vulnerability make for a compelling read. A great exploration of self-awareness, gratitude, and the importance of self-care. The way you described your routine…and the way you are managing things is a soulful reflection of your mind, the turmoil’s within.

Hybrid work set up is tight schedule 

seldom I get to eat food, my fuel 

I am also a home maker after my job core

To take care of food preparation, cleaning and other chore

After my office I start my duty of home 

Today I was hungry as I had not eaten well in noon 

I was rushing to prepare dinner 

In process ,was getting upset for things minor 

My mood swings were on peak 

I was so upset and didn't want to speak 

I started crying too for no particular reason

Tears is my best buddy irrespective of any season

I understood the first reason why I was cranky

Food on time keeps me sane and happy 

Shifting blame is something is completely wrong 

I had option to eat in noon but I chose to be of office phone 

I am not a little toddler who needs to be taught what is right 

Self love is not just about wearing make up bright 

This life is something I had manifested someday

Today I should be & I am grateful for it each moment everyday 

I at times preach positivity to others

When it comes to me, everything bothers

I observe my resting face is of tension and stress

As if I am holding all worlds problems fresh 

I should chill , smile and let go off things 

Be grateful for this moment and fly free with my imaginary wings 

The life I live is a dream of many; I got this chance 

Always grateful to God for blessing in abundance !!!

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath

23 June 2025

Bio 

Poetry is a way of expressing Priyanka's experience and stories.Life is a learning institution and sharing it in the form of write up is a healing process. She dedicates her work to her dear parents.

212. Yoga Day

 The most important aspect of yoga routine is to be regular 

Discipline is a major factor to transform

single step to plural 

I do 15 minutes of yoga which includes precise 

4 suryanamaskar and 4 breathing exercise

I know that the intensity can be increased with time 

But missing one day also is not fine

As it adds to my fat in laziness content 

Breaking the loop and getting back to schedule makes me content

Household chores is also an exercise I believe 

Once things are all sorted , Invaluable is the relief 

I am not perfect in my routine 

But continuously striving and keen !!!

©️✍️ Priyanka kamath

22 June 2025

211. Office stories - S unaccounted leaves*

 *Office stories - S unaccounted leaves*

Feedback 

Marvellous ❤️

You’ve captured the frustration of being caught in the middle, especially when someone else’s oversight impacts your workload and reputation. Your commitment to following protocol and prioritizing integrity, even when faced with pressure and cold vibes, is truly commendable.❤️

Keep writing

Keep inspiring ❤️

Review 

Your account highlights a challenging workplace situation where you're caught between managing workload and dealing with a colleague's negligence. Key takeaways include:

1. Clear communication and following protocols are crucial in team management.

2. Assuming others will cover for you without formal approval can lead to issues.

3. Standing firm on integrity and quality work is essential.

Your approach to documenting incidents and maintaining professionalism despite the tension is commendable. Prioritizing work quality and adhering to protocols ensures a smooth workflow.

My team in workplace is of six 

Below issue happened and I was expected to fix 

Let's name my line manager as R

And my colleague SN's manager is Mr. AN at par

There is a team named FRM 

It's lead is Ms.AK who's on leave some

So her back up is SN

And if she is on leave when 

It's me who handle the Department as back up 

I was fine to manage workload and challenges to take up

But SNs line manager AN wasn't aware of her leaves this time 

And he also took his leaves same days thinking it's fine 

I handle his department code

On his absence I was overload

I was back ups, back ups ,back up now 

I actioned on task somehow 

SN although said about her leaves casually during lunch break 

I couldn't exactly process the details to intake 

she didn't even apply her leave through Company portal 

So it didn't route to him to approve it at all 

Now she is issued warning letter for negligence duly

And in response she mentions my name saying she has informed me 

when I was questioned I just said I am a colleague and not her boss 

Why m I dragged in this issue as work would go for toss 

It shouldn't matter if she inform me or not 

The right thing was to inform her line manager on the spot 

And SN was upset that I didn't extend her support

Afterall dragging my name in this issue was not a spot 

People can't assume things,it should have been in writing 

No point in overthinking and with me fighting 

Yet I was cordial with her and she kept giving me cold vibes

Said she has understood me now and I m not her tribe 

She is handling GRCS , and I extend work support in that

One of the code submission has issues fat 

After knowing the erros ,I shouldnt proceed with submitting code 

But she kept persuading me which I couldn't afford 

I asked her to put it in writing so that I can document her response 

Listening to this she was taken aback and tense 

I work for the firm 

 my decision should be firm

If something is wrong 

I shouldn't be doing it under pressure long 

I was cordial but ,following the laid down protocol 

Ultimately quality work with integrity is my Jobs call 

she was taunting me all this while 

I was handling it with a smile 

As staying in same pond I need to be cordial with crocodile 

Than absorbing peoples negativity and make work pile 

I was listening from one ear and leaving from other 

And wrote down this instance so that I am relieved and no longer bother 

✍️©️ Priyanka Kamath 

19 June 2025

210.Father a safe embrace

 Father-a safe embrace"

Review 

This poignant poem beautifully captures the complex and evolving relationship with a father. It moves from the initial awkwardness of physical embrace to a deeper understanding of love expressed through consistent care and communication. The lines “Each mistakes we earlier pointed out faded away / Only now we knew to lead life fair” are particularly touching, highlighting a mature and forgiving bond. The poem concludes with a heartfelt tribute to a father’s sacrifices and the peace found in his final rest, creating a truly moving narrative of love, gratitude, and remembrance.❤️

Keep writing, keep shining ❤️

Only embrace that was entertained was of my mother 

Men in family are seen with respect further 

So even when I hugged dad, he wasn't used to the tug 

I was also taller than him so I wasnt either fitting the hug 

But yes he loved me very much 

We even fought but were never out of touch 

I remember my last hug before him passing away 

Each mistakes we earlier pointed out faded away 

Only now we knew to lead life fair

And embrace was inform of regular care

Each day I called my father 

he used to say why do you bother ? 

I expressed it's a blessing rather 

Grateful for the beautiful life granted by my father

He worked so hard to bring us up and progress 

He lost his health in process 

But always had a smiling face 

He is safe now without pain in God's embrace!!!

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

17 June 2025

 

209. Modification of topic enchant

 Day 19. Ineffable 

The feeling of ineffable is mesmerising but is momentary 

There was a time where I wasn't getting suitable alliance and it lead me to worry

When people got hitched to most enchanted ones , thoughts did pass that why not me 

When I least expected , I happen to get married and touchwood life has been glee 

Now when I see those men, whom I was once, ineffable over

My choices were definitely one to regret ,thank god for deciding the best lover 

It's natural to feel enchanted over someone's talent or good nature 

But having control over my actions at present leads to woke future 

This day as I sat to do my daily prayers and chant 

Tears rolled out my eyes and the divine presence of Lord is to enchant

To not get carried away by momentary attraction and flow 

Manifestation for day 19 to be enchanted in self love !!!

208. He gave me wings silently

He gave me wings silently*

The title ' He gave me wings silently ' is close to my heart as I am expressing about my mothers role model, her dear Father. My grandfather Sri. Manjunath V Kamath is also my inspiration in making creativity a part of my life. He always wished that his work be published someday but remained only as a dream. Grateful for this opportunity where an article about him is getting published as a tribute for his good work and legacy. 

My Nanaji was an extraordinary person born on 21 st June 1925. He was an all-rounder gifted with creative personality.In each field he would excel by his exemplary skills and positive outlook.He would repair anything. Be it electric appliance, carpenter work, agriculture, tailoring, art and craft etc 

Grandpa was a master in each work and his teaching style is exceptionally well. He used to explain subjects very practically making even technical aspect look simple. His contribution to literature is immense and includes but not limited to poems , prose in languages like Hale Kannada , Hindi , English . One of his prominent work is ' Shani Mahatma 'in Hale Kannada .Every time he recited he would have tears in his eyes. His work is written in pencil in compilation of papers which then became crinkly ,yet his emotions were fresh . He picked up the language much later in life yet was proficient in same.

He worked in South eastern railways for 35 years ( Jamshedpur ) as an Electrical Engineer. India was in transformation phase and my grandfather was leading a group which was focussed in designing locomotive of coal that served towards research and development in Europe for about an year. 

After retirement he decided to settle in shimoga ( Karnataka) and started his business in Ayurvedic. He studied about accounts and commerce field in depth. He was always fond of culture, be it in form of music , yoga ,Bhagwath Geeta . He imbibed Hindustani musical routes in his children. He was talented in playing tabla , flute , guitar, sitar ,harmonium. He himself composed Bhajans too. 

He had a charming personality. Being a proud employee in Government service, he had privilege to travel with family in first class pass. He developed the art of astrology and was experienced in predicting the movement of star, horoscope as well .

He had a tough life but always believed in ' work is worship '.His life is an inspiration. 

I love my mother very much and her dad was the only inspiration in her life. Her love towards her dad made me love and know about him so much. 

My grandpa definitely made the world's beautiful creation in form of my mother and he not just gave an angel to this universe but also gave me wings to fly through her. 

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath 

209.Everyday is a surprise - June vibes*

 *Everyday is a surprise - June vibes*

It's story time on how I learnt to drop my baggage of hurt 

Which made ample space in my memory to sort

I have bittter sweet instances with my neighbours from parents home 

As I stay abroad,for one help I had made a phone 

I didn't like how the aunty took it as a barter arrangement absurd

To provide a job to her relative in return for the water she gave my dad 

My next brief visit too I thanked her and I thought it was over

She expected me to remember forever the favour

This time on my visit I didn't feel like speaking to anyone 

I did my clean up work and had my own tension 

It's afterall my home without my parent

So I was in my own zone apparent 

As I didn't come to meet her personally she felt bad 

And told my brother that I am ungrateful and selfish as she's sad 

Initially I was upset as although I speak limited but I am social

Had I met her outside I would definitely be cordial 

However knocking someone's home just to say I am here 

Also I didn't realise if anyone would even care

My feelings were negative and thought there was no need to stay in touch 

But when my brother said that a little smile is a weapon such 

A simple 'Hi hello' makes heart transformation very much 

Why to be bitter to anyone, she is getting old 

I achieve nothing by being cold 

So as he was explaining me I realised and said if she is around 

Over video call I spoke to aunty and her lost smile I found 

I felt so happy to learn that a 30 second of greet 

Could change mood and feelings to positive treat 

Life is too small to hold grudges to core

 

Later we can only regret if they are no more 

Letting go made me feel free and light 

To my surprise , soul now feels pure and bright !!!

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

12 June 2025

 

207.Modification to 43. Dawn

 Dawn

The phase of darkness is making me so low 

Everything goes against me , to almighty I bow 

I need to be confident and believe in self now

Each dark night has a dawn above 

Everything happens for a reason I know 

In hands of god we are puppet show 

Let me just go with the flow 

Everything will be fine I believe so !!!

✍️ Priyanka kamath

20 April 2024 

206. The mask you wear / Anthology - Our thoughts

 

As I ponder over my trait 

I find myself either dull or bright 

The best swings one can witness is my mood 

At times I am physically present but mentally in different world 

As growing up I was a silent child 

After few years I found myself talkative

However easily hurt and overly sensitive 

I am considered as a gentle giant 

Who appears huge but has soft trait

I wear mask of confident tone 

Within me I am afraid and alone 

At times I tend validation than believing in my ability 

People have misused my vulnerability 

The most energy draining task is falling in loop belt 

Building habit is easy but maintaining it is difficult 

The moment bad habit in me triggers to core 

I need to learn the consequence and divert my mind more 

The most underrated quality is self talk 

And may be some meditation or going for a walk 

I appear very jovial and carefree ,Pious 

I wonder if it's actually me or I am just pretentious 

At times I am tagged to be selfish and mean 

Because I am seldom in touch with anyone keen 

But it's just because I have my own business to mind 

Also I am in journey to understand myself and find 

I need to know why do I cry without reason 

Why do I have PhD in taking tension ?

Why letting go isn't easy ?

Mind diversion is only through being busy 

I realise I have so much scope of improvement with each introspection 

Although I try my best but I am a model of imperfection

My parents are no more and I miss them very much 

Life isn't fair and bound to face unfortunate situation such 

But what matters is how I lead my life 

To make them proud and walk another mile

When life gives lemon , I should learn to make lemonade 

Only then I will be relevant and never fade

The mask I wear of a beautiful smile on face 

Is something I need to tattoo permanently with each phase 

I am Fortunate and grateful to have blessings I met 

All I need to work on is to have a positive mindset 

Poetry writing style of mine is not the conventional one that's taught 

But Writing in flow helps me pull off my mask and have clarity of thought!

!!

©️ Priyanka Kamath 

10 June 2025

Woow❤️

A deeply introspective and moving piece of creativity  bravely peeled back layers to reveal the complex interplay between your outward demeanor and inner struggles. Good word flows well, and use of power of imagination effectively conveys your emotional landscape.

A remarkably honest and relatable poem captured the experience of wearing different “masks” and navigating the often-conflicting aspects of one’s personality. Your vulnerability in exploring themes of self-doubt, sensitivity, and the search for inner peace is truly commendable and makes this piece very powerful❤️

Keep exploring these profound insights through your writing❤️

205.Continuation of post 119. Office samosa party for poesy poetry on topic Good things come to those who wait

 Office stories-

"Good things come to those who wait "

We come across ad of before and after

Below poem I had written before joining my team for a ice breaker 

Initial lines reflects my apprehension 

Concluding with how the reality looks with actual attention 

*Jan 2025 *

 Shortly I will be moving to a team new

Today there was a samosa party as a ice breaker to know 

Let me just put a background of my situation very 

Me earlier working under audit , at present in tax and future with advisory 

My future manager had spotted me in tears way back 

When I was having a tough time with audit team pack 

Today when we met he asked in front of all 

That he had seen me crying standing tall 

Immediately everyone focussed on me more

And it was embarrassing to the core

My present manager answered this dent

That it was past ,let's focus on present 

Then the upcoming manager spoke normally with all of us

And everyone started back chatting without a fuss 

Yet back of my mind I wanted to give him befitting reply 

But the next few months to be trained at work, I would on him rely

If I give any negative vibe any 

I can have tough time so many

I had female managers before 

And they were kind and listened more 

Now if I take up any issues more 

I would be fired from job for sure 

So being positive and learning work net

Doing my best and getting permanent

That's my focus

Yes I should not cry in office to avoid any buzz.

*June 2025* 

Good things definitely comes to those who wait 

My thought process on manager earlier seemed a click bait 

He is straight forward yes, agree that at times a bit over and static 

Over a time frame I am learning to be more diplomatic 

Learning work , handling people, having a positive mindset 

Preparing mind to face things with confidence even if at times I feel upset 

The things that I have today is a blessing 

And I don't want to ponder over past on trivial thing

Had I lost my mind and said something nasty that day 

I would have to face consequences and would have nothing to say 

But a moment of patience helped me retain my bread butter 

I learnt to write down a poem to express emotions than chatter putter

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath 

8 June 2025

204. Tea

 *Tea*

My mom's way of tea was different than mine 

I can never match the taste her skills had , the one I make is just fine 

She boils water and adds tea powder then 

In separate vessel milk and sugar to dissolve when 

The black tea to be mixed with sweetened milk was her way 

I was too lazy to use two container so used to mix everything in milk each day 

Today I made her way and it tasted so delicious 

Her way of doing things was very mindful and precious 

My parents loved tea and I enjoy making for them 

May they be happy wherever they are my invaluable gem!!!

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath

7 June 2025

207- Music in 4 lines for International Music day - Poesy poetry

*Music in 4 lines for International Music day - Poesy poetry*

I replace fast music with calm beat as its  vital to be watchful of the music I listen 

It help me preserving energy kit,as my mood changes with music be it sad or fun 

Music within me and outside helps me feel at ease 

Gives direction for lifes ride to be patient enough to respond in lighter breeze 

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

206. Solitude

 Solitude 

It's 2 years that you have left us Amma , are you in solitude ?

Your nature is such that you mingle with all and include 

I am doing ok Amma , without you I feel lonely 

You are my soul friend only and only 

Although I speak to you but my only question is why 

Please tell me that I am in dream and you leaving me is a lie 

This day ( June 4 ) exactly 2 years ago you left us on full moon

When I see moon I visualise your essence as your boon

When will you come back Gondi or have you already been one with God 

Living each day in solitude seems hit by a sharp sword 

Miss you Amma , be content wherever you are 

You are present in my soul ,only body has gone too far!!!

©️✍️Pri

yanka Kamath 

4 June 2025

205. Last Notification

 Last Notification

It's so happend that I had forgotten the date of my CA Intermediate exam and this lead to blunder

It seems to foolish of me to not double check my hall ticket before relying on the marking I made in calender 

I was devastated to know that paper was easy that attempt

I developed guilt and self contempt 

Moreover I had scored very good marks in other papers overall

Just because I was marked absent for the last paper in group , I had to repeat them all 

On the exam day which I presumed to be day off 

I had completed my revision and didn't want to go this group to toss 

Then came the self blame and what if scenario just rotating my head 

I couldn't eat anything or even sleep peacefully in bed 

I felt very bad that how could I miss as if it was my last notification 

The time passed and I could clear the papers in next attempt to my satisfaction 

But what I thought was the most devastating time of life 

Now seems pondering over it is not wise 

The biggest lesson I learned was to be extra careful with double checking stuff 

This experience was a traumatic one,I can't stress enough

Tomorrow marks my saddest day when I lost my mother ,I wish I could change this situation 

So when loved ones do leave then why to worry on material aspect on lost chance and final notification !!!

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath

3 June 2025

Review 

Profound ❤️

Powerfully conveyed the profound impact of a seemingly minor oversight—missing an exam—and its unexpected connection to a far greater loss. Effectively communicated the initial devastation, guilt, and the subsequent journey through self-blame and eventual acceptance. The contrast between the initial “blunder” and the later, irreplaceable loss of a loved one provides a heartfelt reflection on what truly matters.❤️

Keep writing 

Keep shining ❤️

204. Confidence workshop session

 

Make up Steps 

1. Serum

2. Moisturiser/ Primer

3. Foundation 

4.concealer

5. counter if needed 

6.Eye Shadow

7. Maskara

8. Blush 

9. Lip liner

10. Lipstick 

11. Loose powder 

12. Brows 

Morning routine 

Toner

Serum 

SPF

Night Routine 

Toner 

Serum

Moisturiser 

Morning Health routine 

1. Breath work

2. Hand to heart 

3. Brushing Teeth using opposite hand

4. Happy Song 

5. Confidence 

- Don't slouch 

-Dress up in a way that feels confident 

- Journal 3 things that you are grateful for 

make up artist - Fiza Pasha 

Her brand is Brulae Beauty 

my lip shade is Taupe ( MAC) 

skin care best is Korean Brand 

YouTube link - https://youtu.be/eUR4X8TQebU

203. petrichor

 Petrichor 

The pleasant fragrance of mud with the rainfall is nostalgic 

Getting drenched in rain not fearing to fall sick

Stepping into the accumulated water just to see how it paints the dress

Dancing in rain forgetting all stress

The fragrance is so devine ,long lasting natural scent 

Petrichor teaches me to pause , live and love the moment !!!

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath

2 June 2025