Broken watch
In bus as I sat recalling the instance of dupatta red
My mind recalled my broken watch story in just seconds
I lost my job because of my anger lame
Let's uncover my story of irascible heart flame
In the fight between heart and mind
Choosing heart is always my find
I speak out everything without filter
And realise only when I rethink over a coffee filter
So my job in big four is still close to my heart
This is my first job here and my lifes part
Three years here I was just doing codes
Whereas I could have achieved many milestone mode
If I would ask my team to give me a chance to learn when free
They would tell me that they aren't asked to teach me
Asking my manager I was literally drained
She would say that at right time I would be trained
The peer who joined recently was trained on all task
And why I was inefficient was the management's ask
Then my manager sat next to me
And said that operations task is not meant for me
I said that I love my work and I am sincere
I have always worked on the feedback and been transparent without fear
Then came the all star awards turn
Purposely excluding my name from list was indeed a inner burn
I was although hinted about my exit
I thought the opportunity to reply fit
I told my manager that what she did to me was not right
Isolating me for task and even prize was taken as a personal fight
I told her she is bias and didn't do good
Giving me my share of recognition was the least she could
But then the things I told her in rage
Resulted me in signing the termination page
The most difficult part of this anger rant
Was even difficulty in changing department
Because my manager had put a poor rating
And overcoming the same was a difficult setting
I had to pay a high price for being tough
And during the phase of my notice period working phase was rough
Somehow I managed to work in other team
performance based I am granted extension no less than a dream
Since we are branch of same company tree
My previous manager happens to see me in pantry
Initial days were tough for us
I used to find ways not to meet eyes
But then two days back when I met
I smiled as our eyes glued to each other set
It was awkward but we greeted beyond
Like a broken watch with fevikol rebond
Although I know I may not see time with a broken base
But yes in my minds showcase I may keep her as memory phase
So anger had made my jolly nature into bitter art
Also it had induced a sense of discomfort
But one smile worked as a magic bliss
As I replaced my anger to forgiveness
Keeping grudge doesn't heal
Winning an arguement is not a big deal
After anger effect is a strange feel
I ended up being sad,upset and lack of zeal
Universe gave me a chance to restart
I know life is not fair but it's ones karmic accounts part
Even now I know I may not be my managers favourite
But then handling
diplomatically is a art
Same matter for which I was fighting over now seems lame
This is one of my stories how watch was broken but time showed same.
©️ ✍️Priyanka Kamath
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