131.Welcoming 2025

 Welcoming 2025-Manifestations for new year.

Improved version of me 

New perspective to see

Positive mind, exercise is stress releaser

Prioritize self,not to be people pleaser

Faith in God ,more of self belief 

Focus on priority task & hobby for relief 

To be duty bound &enjoy work to full 

To explore self potential & develop new skill

To avoid people who does energy drain

And keep doing activities where I sharpen my brain 

Giving a break to studies has been too long

I will re-start and come out strong 

Journalling, exercise will be consistent life's part

Revisiting my forgotten skills and art 

To keep my parents principles intact 

To not make assumptions and accept fact

I am my improved version in 2025

I will put forth my opinion without cry

The street chaps my parents fed will be good

God will protect them and arrange them food 

My worries are replaced by productivity 

Knowledge takes over my sensitivity 

I make mark in my life and be glee 

My parents are blessing and are proud of me 

My job this year will be permanent and no more shabby

God will grace me this year with a baby 

My grey hair strand which started popping 

I gracefully accept them hoping 

That experience teaches me not to repeat same mistake 

I learn to grow, improve and never be fake 

Leaving behind my baggage of past if weren't great 

but take lessons imbibed through my fate

My parents role in this play is over 

New character will be introduced to love shower

Will enjoy good time travel mine 

Accompanying spouse with smile and shine 

Wishing, welcoming 2025 and manifesting 

Clarity in thoughts and journey ahead interesting!!!

Happy New year dears

Let's say cheese, cheers!!

✍️©️ Priyanka Kamath

30-12-2024

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Fabulous🔥

Beautifully written aspirations and hopes for the new year, along with a desire for self-improvement, are packed with positive affirmations, and focus on personal growth, mental well-being, and fulfilling your full potential.Prioritised oneself, developing a positive mindset and breaking free from limiting beliefs are outlined as goals. A deep sense of gratitude towards parents and a strong faith in God are also reflected🔥

A heartfelt expression of optimism and a commitment to creating a fulfilling and meaningful life in the coming year.🔥

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130.Reflections on Christmas *

 

*Reflections on Christmas *

Christmas is a festival of joy. Gift used to be main area of focus. Slowly I began to be absorbed in peer pressure to gift my random colleague a certain value item. This year I didn't participate in secret Santa because I didn't want to do it for the sake of it. Although I would also receive one in return but I can get something for self than hoarding stuff which I may not use. I rather feel great joy in feeding street animals. 

I was missing my parents a lot since my dad used to enjoy all festival .As a tribute I made a little video in their memory where I had captured little moments and posted in my social media. I have stopped bothering about strangers and their thoughts . If writing a poem ,making a reel makes me fine then my parents up there would also feel the joy.

I have stopped interfering in others life. I used to earlier engross in gossips. But now I have started to focus on my self-improvement. Letting go is what I am practicing. 

Office front I try as much to not show my emotions, however at times I still do feel anxious. I am doing my prayers regularly so that almighty protect me and remove any baggage if any.

I am trying to understand my own self .When I see mirror, I can only see a soul who has tried her best, cried for the loses faced, stood up and reached so far.

 As year end approaches I am cleaning up my mess in home , body , mind ,soul if absorbed with low energy content.

The gist of the reflection I see this festive season is self love to core and to believe in myself a little more .

✍️Priyanka kamath

27-12-2024

129.Mist of veil

 

Mist of veil

A family willing to adopt my little bird 

Based on the goodwill I had 

But the bird doesn't want to be in nest 

Wishing well for her has put me to sickle of test 

Bird doesn't want to adjust in new home

I am guilty of giving family the hope 

The bird wants to roam around free

Doesn't wish to be in shelter of tree

The new family is kind 

I wish a genuinely happy bird they find

My bird is aged but not matured flame 

Consequence ahead for me to be a person to blame 

I wish well for new family as well as bird 

Directly conveying would be absurd 

A step ahead is pit 

Backward door is shut

 I am not sure how to express

Without conveying I am feeling in stress

Covering a mist of veil in form of poem to the reality check

For new family to make themselves requisite background checks

©️ Priyanka Kamath 

17-12-2024

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Superb🔥

The internal conflict is very well depicted giving a new perspective to the given topic. Beautifully expressed the different forms of emotions and ends with a beautiful message🔥

Well-done🔥

Keep it up🔥

@⁨Priyanka Kamath⁩

128.Moonlight Rendezvous

 

*Moonlight Rendezvous*

As a daughter, my days first thought

Was to check about my parents whereabout

Seems a part of me is taken away 

In heaven, as they made their way 

But I do feel their essence diverse 

Is still felt in this universe 

As I see the moon and starry night 

In calmness of sky, I visualise their sight

I believe my each emotion reaches them

My parents are always my priceless gem

Calling parents multiple times was indeed a blessing in row

I continue to connect with them under moonlight Rendezvous 

I wonder what can I do for them as a tribute?

Well, I cant certainly sow a bitter fruit 

When I say bitter fruit,it implies 

Consequences by disobeying the right advise 

Dear Amma Aanu , under moonlights calm gaze

Bless me to let go of my toxic ways

I will connect to you more

When I am honest to myself at core 

I offer my sincere apology heartfull

If I was ever to you hurtful 

You constantly guided me my way 

Now I should walk the path that lay 

Just how moon keep changing it's size

Keep your culture alive in me and rise

I should negate my vice

And grow more wise

Furthermore, my parents have nothing more to lose 

Upto me on how I craft my karmic 

account and path choose 

I will never forget the good principles my parents gave 

Will walk in the path of righteous duty and be brave 

Moon in all forms gives me glimpse fresh 

I speak to my parents via universe each day to express

That thanks for keeping them alive in each gift of your

I feel them in air , water , fire , sky ,earth pure 

After losing mom, I could see her in moon 

Now I see dad in polar star reaching mom soon 

I have so much to speak 

Also your advise I seek 

In form of moon you will listen to me at all age 

Please also relieve me from any baggage 

Let's catch up each night 

Pleas

e put me to sleep and hug me tight

©️ Priyanka Kamath

09-12-2024

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Magnificent ❤️

Beautifully woven the power of love and remembrance even after death. Expressed the power of love and lost with the feelings of remembering the deceased parents and being connected to them through night sky.Also highlighted the desire to be a good person and live a good life to honor of their memory and asked them to guide and help to overcome challenges.❤️

Well-articulated❤️

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Keep rocking ❤️

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127.Coping up with pain of losing parent

 

*Coping up with pain of losing parent*

In Span of a year , I lost both my parent

So difficult is the situation at present 

I am not healed 

My tears aren't sealed 

Memories do peel 

Heart sobs, I feel 

Solution I though give to self on how I dealt 

Yet at times I feel at guilt 

Speaking to my parents was the most beautiful time 

All possessions are the precious memories mine 

The pain of losing them is tough to deal 

My parents sweet smile deeply I feel 

My childhood memories may not be the sweetest 

I have faced my share of struggle and test

I may have fought with my parents at times 

Now only good memories I have as time flies 

Physical pain can be even calmed down

But pain felt of losing a dear one has outgrown 

Time is not healing for me 

Guilt has made an entry 

I am trying to change my focus 

As if I have plastered my wound prevent puss 

I never imagined my beautiful family would be in ashes 

All I have is only the memory flashes 

Who will love me the way my parents did 

Whom will I call ,care and treat like a kid

I also went into toxic zone 

Constantly scrolling my phone 

I need a lot of healing within 

God please forgive my sin

Help me overcome the grief 

Woking is giving me some relief 

But as soon as I get back to reality 

I don't feel good till infinity 

I miss my parents and the memories that seize

May their soul rest in peace!!!

© Priyanka kamath

06/11/2024

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Poignant ❤️

So sorry to hear about your loss. The unbearable pain of the emotional turmoil of losing both parents within a year has been beautifully captured. The honest expressions of grief resonate deeply and are heart-touching. I can feel that you miss them and think about them so much and you are also trying to heal and move on, even though it is hard.❤️

Keep it up ❤️

@⁨Priyanka Kamath⁩

126.Condolences to my dear father

Condolences for my dad

Late Sri.B. Prabhakar Kamath

(15-07-1952 to 28-11-2024)

To my dearest Aanu, Rest well,no more pain 

In all my prayers I offer ,I see you again 

God took with Him amma and now you 

Best wishes for your journey in heaven phase new 

I miss you dearly dad

Please forgive me if I was ever bad

With you I may have fought 

But I love you throughout 

I am proud of you for every bit shift 

Not just for your kids but for family uplift 

Being from background modest

You won gracefully each test

Even if you faced any physical pain

Your sheer willpower made you come again 

Whenever I made a call you often said don't bother

But I enjoyed each time with you rather

The way you enjoyed each bit of food you ate

I wish God Grace you with all delicacies in full plate 

You are the most beautiful person inside out 

You are my super hero without any doubt 

Thank you for taking so much pain to save for us 

And doing your duty so well without any fuss

I will do my duty and make you proud 

Overcome life's test and be unique in crowd 

Amma and you must be seeing me from above 

Blessing us and showering me so much love!!!

©️ Priyanka Kamath 

28-11-2024

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Exquistive ❤️

Pays a heartfelt tribute to your father, the late Mr. B. Prabhakar Kamath and expresses profound grief and loss. His strength, and selfless nature are beautifully highlighted and his positive impact on his life and his family and community is mentioned. Acknowledged your struggles with him but also emphasised his love and respect for yourself . Expressed gratitude for his sacrifices and devotion to his family.❤️

The final lines express hope and promise to honor his legacy by living a full life❤️

Heart-touching and beautiful expression of grief and love ❤️

Keep penning 

Keep inspiring ❤️

@⁨Priyanka Kamath⁩

125- Poetry prompt-Moments

 Overeating dumps stomach fill...

Money wasted satisfaction nil...

Moment decides lifestyle healthy...

Sound mind healthy body!!!

©️ Priyanka Kamath 

27-11-2024

124.Gallivanting journey diaries

* Gallivanting journey diaries*

Journey is indeed beautiful than destination I agree

Preserving good memories,taking back lessons and setting self free

In my mangalore visit I had been to temple and beach 

Visited my dad, relished moment each

kateel temple has elephant, calf and water stream to adore 

Little fishes in the river did my free pedicure 

Polali, venkatramana temple and marigudi to name a few 

This refreshing trip I enjoyed time with my niece and nephew

Bus Journey:-

As my solo bus journey rise

I met a handsome man with green eyes 

As he speaks in my mother tongue over phone 

My journey was no more alone

I take the role of match making aunt in seconds trim

Trying to fix my cousin in proposal with him 

He must be embarassed to the core 

Yet my excitement was much more 

I share my apology if ever I put him at gunshot 

As my overtly nature may have made him discomfort

I learnt a lot about communication in this trip related

Meeting people, handling situation, being free spirited 

In my Malaysia trip too it happened 

That our food order was not addressed

The owner was kind to give us a complementary meal

Her kindness did appeal 

In a mall there  we trusted and got a travel suitcase

It was completely damaged while coming over flight base

We had paid in excess not for it to be torn 

I learnt few losses are meant to be borne

Travelling has never been my cup of tea

Solo gallivanting is challenging for me 

Grateful for the lessons learnt and memories to cherish

These life journey helps me to take a leap and 

flourish !!!

©Priyanka Kamath 

25-11-2024

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Marvellous ❤️

A delightful mix of personal anecdotes and experiences on travel. From the excitement of new experiences to the challenges of dealing with unfamiliar situations, the essence of solo travel is captured beautifully. Sharing positive and unique experiences makes it relatable and humorous. The lessons given about communication, and empathy are valuable insights. Heartwarming and inspiring.❤️

Keep it up ❤️

@⁨Priyanka Kamath⁩

123.One liner prompt- Begin again

 

Knowing that chances are given for mistakes again, raises tendency for taking granted 'Begin again '.

 

122.Favourite topic -My Trip to Malaysia*

 

*Favourite Topic - My Trip to Malaysia*

Malaysia had been in our bucket list keen

The country is beautiful and clean 

Between Penang and Kuala Lumpur we divided our stay

To make it fruitful each day 

Georgetown Penang is well known for its street Art

We did a walking tour of this cultural part

Street art has a different story to shine 

In multiple poses, I could narrate one each time

Passing through Little India, China town and Food street 

Clan of Jetties ,temple here is a visual retreat

Walking through Top of Penang tower beam

Beneath a glass counter is a sky walk theme

Sky Bridge is a outdoor building walk

We get to see Penang city to unlock 

Rainbow walk podium had 4 things to check 

There is a swing of Luck 

A message to manifest and tuck

Top open space for sky walk 

A bell to ring believed to wish lock 

Observatory Deck was near to Sky walk space 

To observe the view indoor at our pace 

Aquarium was filled with variety of marine life pool

The environment was calm and cool

Jurassic park had 2 variations centre

One is research and other one is a live park to enter 

The dinosaur is structured in such a way

As if it is moving and has something to say 

I realise a lot of effort goes into this formation 

Major role of technology and innovation 

There were many Wax Statues as we passed by these gem

They posed with me as if I was special to them 

Mirror never lies but it's just a praise

I saw myself in different forms in Mirror maze

Exploring night market was such a fun drive 

Witnessing fireworks with cool breeze and waves that arrive

I am mesmerized by the impact of seeing beach 

It deep drives and to my soul it reach 

We tried different Malaysian food

First two days we felt it was good 

Tried Nasi lemak ,char kuey teow

Mee curry to name a few 

Public transport is good to carry 

Travelled through bus ,train and ferry 

Batu cave is breathtakingly beautiful call

Was in tears as soon as I spotted Lord Hanuman idol

Lord Murugans calm smile

As if he heard everything standing from a mile

The day we visited, it rained a bit

Peacock dance was a lit

I was eager to capture picture with monkey alone

He was keen on grabbing my phone 

My heart skipped a beat in a row

As monkey raised his eye brows 

Petronas Twin Tower is a tourist attraction core 

With lighting it looked so beautiful much more 

Seremban is a small city 

Explored to get some candy and things petty 

A week long trip was good by god's grace 

To visit as a couple to this country and place 

Understanding different culture and heritage 

And to embrace the moment and let myself free from any baggage 

People were helpful and kind 

Malaysia is indeed a unwinding find!!!

©️ Priyanka kamath

15-11-2024

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A beautiful account of a delightful Malaysian adventure, full of cultural immersion, breathtaking fun and delicious food.❤️

121.CKS Feedback

*CKS Feedback*

CKS writing platform is an emotional feel

I pour out my heart through poems and heal

Didi's feedback is so precious and deep

Sensitivity and creative with love in heap

Certificate and your surprises loop

motivates me to keep writing and take a leap 

Platforms Consistency and sincere efforts is the key here 

I can express my thoughts without any fear

I am blessed to be part of this ever since 

It has brought in me a lot of confidence 

This community is now more than a family 

I thank the team for the efforts done joyfully 

May you prosper and more lourels to come

Happy anniversary,you are awesome !!!

©️✍️ Priyanka kamath

31/10/2024

120. Dil wali Diwali

 

Dil waali Diwali 🪔 Anthology

Festival like Diwali was a wishful call

Helping mom with delicacy and distribute to all

Lighting diyas, cleaning home, wishing relatives and friend

May continue now too but those days had a different trend 

The most special thing was it was done with heart 

And festive season connected two ppl miles apart 

Peple used to visit houses to give handmade sweet 

Slowly it turned to store bought treat

I was accepting all the changing phases of festival season

However 'Dil'is missing in Diwali for the the below reason

Back in mangalore my parents stay in a society lane

Last year losing my mom was such a pain

Dad was doing ok as he has health issues odd

And I was looking for a help to stay with him as I stay abroad 

His health conditions wouldn't allow him to travel

And I was just waiting for my arrival 

My dad had his food arranged deal

He felt weak but missed his meal

He fell near gate and hurt his bone

And some road labourer helped him get home 

He called my bro who stays a bit far

I m glad he came on right time to attend dad's scar

As soon as he arrives at night 

my neighbour Nayana sees this and switchs off doors and light 

Due to body pain dad couldn't walk 

Although bro had kept water nearby he couldn't take

Dad calls me and said that he is thirsty and needs water

I called my neighbours for help as a human and not merely as a daughter 

Mrs. Lobo says she is going for mass so can't attend 

My other neighbour Mrs.Mallya who otherwise used to sweets send

Says that to give water noone will come

 

Other neighbour Kini said he is at work and treated me as if I am troublesome 

Dad's so called friend and relatives  who came to each of our family function

 

To relish the food, get gossips but none were there to share my concern 

Mrs.Lobo then sends her house help to give dad water 

And then calls me over phone later 

Mentions that for the favour that she has given broad 

She wants me to repay it by giving her nephew a job abroad

Sometimes I feel ppl are less human as technology pace doubles

As noone wants to take any unnecessary troubles

Real help is to be selfless and be kind towards someone in need 

This is what develops in good  karmic seed

Wishing a blissful festival and Pouring my heart with you all

I believe god is holding my hands and will never let me fall

Thankfully a good arrangement for dad is made at place

Only prayers for this Diwali is for him to heal by God's grace !!

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath

29-10-2024

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Awesomely awesome🔥

Your heart-warming words paint a beautiful picture of the transformation of Diwali, highlighting how it was once a festival of warmth and true bonding, but has now lost some of its essence in the modern world.🔥

Personal experiences highlight the difference between the idealised image of Diwali and the reality of human apathy. Despite the apathy, acts of compassion are also highlighted.Your views on the changing nature of relationships and the impact of technology are insightful. Your prayers for your father's recovery reflect the true spirit of the festival - a time of hope, healing and the triumph of light over darkness.🔥

May your father recover completely, and may Diwali bring you peace, joy and a renewed faith in humanity.🔥

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@⁨Priyanka Kamath⁩

119.Office stories- samosa party smile story*

 

Office stories- samosa party smile story*

Shortly I will be moving to a team new

Today there was a samosa party as a ice breaker to know 

Let me just put a background of my situation very 

Me earlier working under audit , at present in tax and future with advisory 

My future manager had spotted me in tears way back 

When I was having a tough time with audit team pack 

Today when we met he asked in front of all 

That he had seen me crying standing tall 

Immediately everyone focussed on me more

And it was embarrassing to the core

My present manager answered this dent

That it was past ,let's focus on present 

Then the upcoming manager spoke normally with all of us

 

And everyone started back chatting without a fuss 

Yet back of my mind I wanted to give him befitting reply 

But the next few months to be trained at work, I would on him rely

If I give any negative vibe any 

I can have tough time so many

I had female managers before 

And they were kind and listened more 

Now if I take up any issues more

I would be fired from job for sure 

So being positive and learning work net

Doing my best and getting permanent

That's my focus 

Yes I should not cry in office to avoid any buzz.

Anyways coming to my second part of pile 

An issue over a smile 

I smiled to my colleague and to smile back he didn't bother 

I could have been silent but I spoke rather

He said he doesn't know me so he didn't smile sheer

So I said you aren't a hero , I smiled as a gesture as you are peer 

He thought he was handsome that I couldn't resist but smile like this 

Gave befitting reply to avoid wrong impression about this 

Possibly I have a lot of baggage in my heart

Which is making me show naive and emotional part

I know I behave stupid at times 

Yet good part is that I am journaling my feelings in this lines 

Someday when I would look back

I would know if I have forgone this baggage pack 

I am in such phase shatter

That I can cry even for tiny matter 

I know this too shall pass sure

I should believe in myself a little more!!!

©️ ✍️Priyanka Kamath

25-10-2024

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Marvellous 🔥

A poignant moment of vulnerability and resilience is captured beautifully. The candid reflection on the emotional journey from past struggles to current challenges is presented, which is both relatable and inspiring. The contrast between the supportive and understanding current manager and the more indifferent future manager highlighted the complexities of workplace dynamics. The self-awareness of the emotional burden and the determination to overcome, is commendable . Empathy and understanding are portrayed brilliantly with raw honesty and introspective tone.🔥

Beautiful content 🔥

Keep it up 🔥

@⁨Priyanka Kamath⁩

118.Connected

 *Connected*

There are 3 connections I see broad

With self , close relations and with God 

Just like how phone charger is a must

 for phone to access seamless list

I realised my connection to life's charger when it was lost 

When I do my yoga, prayers ,meditation..

And work with full dedication ..

I feel happier,content and slay

This is how I charge my day

The moment I lean towards certain situation

And give lesser importance to self connection 

I feel a drain in my energy magic ball

And without charger I exhaust them all

These lifestyle discipline which I refer to charger 

Is to be daily connected to myself here

Just like how the phone gets dead 

I shouldn't let my pure soul shed 

Toxicity, negativity is easily found 

But inner connection with self is a lifelong bond 

With charger if misplaced we should  trace it 

With life our charger finds us but we should embrace it 

I was  recently coping up with some personal issue

Routine changed to crying and wiping off tears with tissue 

But I forgot to charge myself, connect and bond 

As a result I was aimlessly focussing on negativity around 

The moment I gave away my worries to god 

Started daily meditation and disciplined routine bond 

I understood that my response to situation made it worse 

I can overcome each test in life's phase

To overcome each test put by life with grace

Being dutiful and Staying connected to self is the base !!!

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath 

22 October 2024

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Fantastic 🔥

Beautifully compared to a phone charger to illustrate the idea of the need for constant recharging in life. Emphasised the importance of connecting to oneself through practices such as yoga, meditation and mindful work, which is like a lifesaver and helps to deal with personal challenges and overcome negativity. Perfectly described the need for routine to maintain connection and energy. Showed faith in the process by showing dedication and belief in a higher power (God).🔥

Presented a beautiful and insightful reflection on the importance of connection and gave a beautiful message that staying connected to oneself can help us face life’s challenges more easily.🔥

Keep writing 

Keep Inspiring🔥

@⁨Priyanka Kamath⁩

117. Housewife

 

Housewife*

Term housewife has evolved over time 

The essence of being a homemaker and outshine 

I wonder if working in corporate would tag me as working lady to core 

Considering I come back home and do my household chore

Just as when I do heavy lifting with all charm

I tend to push my capacity in my arm

After household work queue 

I persue my hobby too

I make sure to write weekly one poem atleast 

It really gives confidence in my fist

In addition when I give myself a chance to persue my studies more

It immensely gives me a life purpose for sure

I am aware if motherhood approaches me 

My life would definitely turn 360 degree

I have seen and felt my mom strive hard for us 

By god's grace ,I am all set to do my duty without fuss!!!

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

15 October 2024

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Wow🔥

An empowering perspective on the diverse roles and contributions of women. Challenging old stereotypes, it shows the strength, resilience and determination that defines the modern housewife. 

Beautifully portrays the physical and mental labour involved in household chores, comparing them to "heavy lifting".🔥

Remembering your mother as a housewife and mother, you beautifully admitted that she was the inspiration for your journey🔥

Keep it upt

Thanks for sharing your beautiful thoughts🔥

@⁨Priyanka Kamath⁩

116.Deep Seated Ache

 *Deep Seated Ache*

One of the loss that took toll on my health 

Was losing hard earned monetary wealth 

I was victim of a scam net 

Revisiting surely makes my eyes wet

I used to fill up lucky draw vouchers in mall

Based on same I receive a call

I along with spouse was asked to come in a hotel hall 

To accept the prize and in trap to fall 

An attractive package for travel was offered bruh!

Something too good to be true

The salesperson was too adamant even to give time to think 

Few lakhs amount was gone in blink 

I was too upset with my spouse for sure 

His intention was to take me to world tour 

Eventually the company turned out to be fraud 

It was like a direct hit to our trust with Rod 

We seeked help with bank,police,legal way

But the company no longer exist and the owner has ran away 

The team was from my hometown 

It hits hard that I got deceived from whom I thought as own

The consequences was too deep

I lost focus on work and sleep

One motivation kept me going 

If fired from job and sitting home hoping 

Would do no good so best was to focus on work

Than crying over split milk and being a jerk 

Even today when I think about this deep seated ache

I feel let this be a nightmare for god's sake

I do believe in karmic account 

If something is written in fate ,it will !without my fault 

Atleast I have a shoulder to cry 

I can work harder to resume the monetary loss and try 

In life relations matter the most 

'Health is wealth' I am grateful utmost 

If money would have got possession every other 

I would definitely get back my Mother 

Her loss I can never compensate 

But life indeed gives each day as a fresh slate

Losses are inevitable at times

Such experience have made me wise!!!

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

29 September 2024

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Poignant🔥

A powerful and moving piece of writing that reflects a heartfelt exploration of loss. The emotional turmoil and financial devastation that comes from being a victim of fraud is beautifully depicted, while also providing valuable insight into the importance of relationships and health. It is a beautiful testament to your ability to overcome adversity and find strength in the face of loss.❤️

Keep writing 

Keep shining 🖋️

@⁨Priyanka Kamath⁩

115.A sip of intoxication

 

A sip of intoxication*

Situation in life can be unfavorable 

Motive to divert mind and be stable 

Mind diversion when leads to incorrect choice

Could give temporary pleasure even in noise 

Feel good harmones triggers with each toxic sip 

Eventually leads to sailing in aimless ship

Happiness string would no more be with us

Lack of focus is a demerit plus 

Coming out from addiction is a challenge 

This can be achieved by lifestyle change 

One of the sips of intoxication I tasted 

Sharing how my time and energy in this is wasted 

My peer who discussed her life gossip 

Over few popcorns and a coffee sip 

Little did I know this would be in line 

List of intoxication sip of mine

When she disturbed in between work and I said I can't

Yet she persuaded me as if I am her agony aunt 

I agree, her breakup can be one of her toughest phase 

But I am not her punching bag in any case

For her I was a sip of intoxication 

To vent out and get some relaxation 

If I was her therapist, I would be a millionaire by now 

I tried to give her all solution and then again she asks why and how 

Coming out of this toxic circle is tough 

Blocking her on my part would be rough 

A lot of drain in energy I feel 

Sip of intoxication now no longer appeal

Coming out of this loop is indeed a challenge 

Each day is a fresh page

I will and I can come out of this cage 

A sip of intoxication is a poky knife 

Such experience is indeed a lesson for life!!!

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

24 September 2024

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Incredible 🔥

A beautiful, inspiring and thoughtful poem that warns of the dangers of toxic relationships. Its tone is reflective and cautionary, highlighting the potential dangers of allowing others to consume your time and energy. It is divided into several stanzas, each of which explores a different aspect of the subject. The rhythm is smooth and flowing, the message is relevant and timely, and it could serve as a cautionary tale. Good job🔥

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114.Tinkling anklets*

 *Tinkling anklets*

Tinkling anklet is a metaphor for my mom's graceful presence

She transformed house into a home with her essence

Tinkling anklets is also my parents home feel

Kitchen chores , distant noises, sound of steel 

Tinkling anklet now defines my nephew nieces playfulness 

Emptiness of losing a parent is filled by these bundle of joy and happiness

Anklet tinkling rhythm is an emotion

Which continues to exist in my lifes portion.

Recently in my office when there was a Global village event fair 

I realised wearing a traditional wear,anklet has become so rare

When something is missed it's valued more 

The essence of tinkling anklet is in my hearts core 

Tinkling anklet is also a metaphor for my inner charm 

Which often covers with trivial stress worm

My poetry earlier was effortless glee

Now I feel something is hindering me

My poem is a reflection of my present thoughts fume

Let my tinkling anklets to make me dance to it's rhythmic tune!!!

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath

17 September 2024

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Awesome 🔥

The essence of a mother's love and its impact on our lives is beautifully depicted. The metaphor of the tinkling anklets is a clever way to express the grace, joy and comfort she brings. The contrast between the emptiness of losing a parent and the joy of watching your nephews and nieces play is poignant.

The reference to the Global Village event is a nice touch, highlighting the importance of cultural heritage and the value of traditions. It is a reminder that sometimes we don't appreciate things until they are gone.The final lines are particularly powerful, suggesting that tinkling anklets can be a symbol of inner strength and resilience. It is a call to embrace the joy and beauty in life, even when facing challenges.🔥

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113. Irascible hearts flame

 Irascible hearts flame*

I lost my job because of my anger lame

Let's uncover my story of irascible heart flame

In the fight between heart and mind

Choosing heart is always my find

I speak out everything without filter 

And realise only when I rethink over a coffee filter 

So my job in big four is still close to my heart 

This is my first job here and my lifes part

Three years here I was just doing codes

Whereas I could have achieved many milestone mode 

If I would ask my team to give me a chance to learn when free 

They would tell me that they aren't asked to teach me

Asking my manager I was literally drained

She would say that at right time I would be trained

The peer who joined recently was trained on all task

And why I was inefficient was the management's ask 

Then my manager sat next to me 

And said that operations task is not meant for me 

I said that I love my work and I am sincere 

I have always worked on the feedback and been transparent without fear 

Then came the all star awards turn

Purposely excluding my name from list was indeed a inner burn

I was although hinted about my exit 

I thought the opportunity to reply fit 

I told my manager that what she did to me was not right 

Isolating me for task and even prize was taken as a personal fight 

I told her she is bias and didn't do good 

Giving me my share of recognition was the least she could 

But then the things I told her in rage 

Resulted me in signing the termination page 

The most difficult part of this anger rant

Was even difficulty in changing department

Because my manager had put a poor rating 

And overcoming the same was a difficult setting 

I had to pay a high price for being tough 

And during the phase of my notice period working phase was rough 

Somehow I managed to work in other team 

performance based I am granted extension no less than a dream 

Since we are branch of same company tree

My previous manager happens to see me in pantry

Initial days were tough for us 

I used to find ways not to meet eyes 

But then two days back when I met 

I smiled as our eyes glued to each other set

It was awkward but we greeted beyond 

Like a broken glass with fevikol rebond

Although I know I can't drink with a broken base

But yes in my minds showcase I may keep her as memory phase 

So anger had made my jolly nature into bitter art

Also it had induced a sense of discomfort 

But one smile worked as a magic bliss

As I replaced my anger to forgiveness

Keeping grudge doesn't heal 

Winning an arguement is not a big deal 

After anger effect is a strange feel

I ended up being sad,upset and lack of zeal

Universe gave me a chance to restart 

I know life is not fair but it's ones karmic accounts part 

Even now I know I may not be my managers favourite 

But then handling diplomatically is a art

Same matter for which I was fighting over now seems lame 

This is one of my stories on my Irascible hearts flame !!!

©️ ✍️Priyanka Kamath 

09/09/2024

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Amazing 🔥

Highlighting topics of conflict, discrimination and the importance of emotional intelligence at the workplace, the story brilliantly provided valuable insights and personal perspectives. A positive message about ultimately forgiving and moving on, despite facing challenges, is commendable. Using figurative language and imagery effectively added to its beauty 🔥

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112. Derivative

 What is a derivative ? 

Ans - Something that derives it's value from others. 

Example - Curd 

It derives it's value from Milk.

Say 1 kg curd =Rs. 70

        1 ltr milk = Rs. 40 

Why the difference in price??

Dhahi jamaane Mai wakt Lagta hai aur let's say it takes 1.5 litres milk to make 1kg Curd .

Now what happens if the milk price is reduced by 50 percent and curd price is double..

Is it possible??? Well .. yes if the demand and supply of milk and curd is independent of each other then this situation is possible. And we can apply arbitration to check on this disequilibrium.

How ??

See this 

So now milk price is 50 percent less which is 20 rs. And it takes 1.5 ltr to make a curd. So we are buying milk worth 30 rs to make 1 kg curd . The curd price is double so it's inflated to 140 rs now. 

Reasonable price hai for Dahi 40 rs and it's overvalued by 100 rs now. 

Overvalue hai toh sell Karo.. 

Sell Karne ke liye Dahi toh hai Nahi 

Toh kya ?? Jamaalo

30 rs .ke milk khareedo aur jamaalo and dhahi becho thode Kam mai..

Competitors will reduce price to stay in market .

And thus we being price equilibrium using arbitrage. 

111.Teacher - Architect of Tomorrow

 

Teacher - Architect of Tomorrow

Teachers day wishes to my first teacher.. 

My mother , academic ones as well as brother ..

In this poem I like to convey 

How I am a teacher in life's way

I have been a student sincere 

In workplace,an employee with seldom fear

A good student is not the one who takes

down just notes

It's one who practically applies when situation quotes

I am into operations task 

Not just processing the request  

also circulating the copy is the ask 

I generally miss to keep a track 

This is a trigger for efficiency lack 

My manager highlighted this fill

Self organising is a skill

I am teaching myself to have a approach solution based..

Maintaining a tracker and revisiting it, is efficient paced..

Repeating same mistake means focus lack 

Work should be like a set card pack 

To be organised and systamatic 

would make me content with workdone tick 

In life sometimes we should be our own teacher 

If the lessons learnt is underestimated, it will again feature 

It's more effective to play a dual role 

of teacher and student overall 

This will ensure I am in right track 

As a student if I do a mistake 

Teacher within me will rework

Hit on the target with the lifes arrow

Discipline is a teacher - an architect for tomorrow !!!

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

3 September 2024

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Excellent 🔥

Started your thoughts beautifully by mentioning your mother and brother as teachers, shows your love and respect for them❤️

By learning from our mistakes and taking responsibility for our growth, we can ensure we're on the right path.Brilliantly highlighted the dual roles we play in life as both teachers and students. Emphasised sincerity and efficiency in learning and work, stressing the importance of self-organization and problem-solving. The role of discipline as essential to achieving success was beautifully concluded.🔥

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110. Music

 * Music *

Multiple tune of music is lifes part

To alter the tune to suit our need is an art

Clicking pictures and making memories is my zeal 

As I tend to revisit the memories and feel

Recent instance of an office team outing

There was music , food ,games wing

Excited me started clicking pictures and video 

And filled up my phone memory studio

Unless I have a tripod it's difficult to capture my play

I had to ask one of my peers to record me as I slay 

But I could sense her discomfort with each click 

I understood may be I was asking for too much 

Music which played in my mind of chill

Slowly changed into a new tune fill

After editing I made a 60 second reel 

Saved just 1 picture for memory deal 

So all those 100 videos been

Were now in my trash bin 

I replayed my music of self reflection 

Where this tune led me to a direction 

That living in present moment is fun

Taking one picture for memory and done

If I have to ask someone which can make them uneasy 

Then my share of memories seems falling dizzy 

Sometimes understanding my own acts takes me to a zone 

Where I feel toxic and impulsive starring at phone 

Music has also helped me feel at ease 

To be patient enough to respond in lighter breeze 

It's also vital to be watchful of the music I listen 

My mood changes with music be it sad or fun 

So I replaced fast music with calm beat

Which could help me preserving energy kit

These instances on how music within me and outside 

Keep giving me direction for lifes ride!!!

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

26 August 2024

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Splendid 🔥

Beautifully put forth your thoughts and emphasised that using music to cherish and reflect on memories is a powerful experience. You beautifully gave the example of a recent outing with your office team, where you realised the importance of staying in the present during the editing process. Beautifully conveyed the message that music not only enhances the moment but also helps you feel at ease and brings a sense of inner peace. Also underlined its importance in influencing mood and giving direction to life and the journey of life.🔥

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109.Siblings - An enduring relationship

 Siblings - An enduring relationship 

My nature of being possessive 

Has masked self reflection with dew 

There have been times where 

I missed my love share 

I may have questioned on brothers priority at time

All his time I presumed earlier was mine 

I have at times felt a mess

That my space in his heart is now less

Failing to know 

There can be additions in life flow 

But I am princess of my bro

And he is my forever hero 

Recently I was put to test blister

Where I was found manipulative towards my sister 

I understand it was mistake seat

And it's a learning to not repeat 

However crack in a relation is so visible 

I wish I had a timemachine reversible 

Siblings relation is meant to be of laughter and love ball

But eventually my certain responses may have caused it to fall

But then take the lesson and move on 

Similar situation I can act wiser now on

Siblings relation is not all about Grabbing 

It's about giving 

Selflessness is a trait rare 

I am in my learning to be fair 

 Replacing manipulativeness with honesty 

and possessiveness with selflessness 

Is helping me be back my old self as before

To endure my siblings relation with love more!!!

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

20 August 2024

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Wow🔥

Beautifully presented, the essence of the theme is encapsulated in a short story that brilliantly connects with the dynamics of sibling relationships. Draws attention to selflessness and fairness in personal growth. The beautiful message is that replacing manipulation with honesty and possessiveness with selflessness definitely strengthens the bond between siblings, bringing more love, understanding, harmony and happiness in the relationship.❤️

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108.Waved the tricolour*

 

Waved the tricolour*

Waving our National flag has always been a matter of pride

I miss the flag hosting we did back in school days ride

On national occasions we kids had performed wearing costumes with frill

Also paying visit to school for early morning drill

After national anthem I craved for  those sweets

And participating in competition and winning treats

My dream was to be a noteworthy person one day

To host flag and deliver a speech and slay

However the real warriors are always behind the scene ride

Fighting to protect our mother India's pride

Sports back then was not advanced fix

Hence less I saw people representing Olympics

Whenever National anthem plays in the TV for any plays

Doing my bit by standing up and respecting as the flag waves

Now things are much improved , each of us have scope to craft our own story

To be exemplary in respective fields and bring glory

Moreover even if we are mediocre it's fine 

To be a civilised citizen is also a silverline

Any Loreal to our country seems my personal victory

Let India shine , flag waves in pride and make History!!!

Jai Hind 🇮🇳

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath
12/08/2024

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Awesome ❤️

The fluttering Tricolour beautifully depicts the pride every Indian feels. The evolution of aspirations from childhood dreams to real world achievements and the importance of individual excellence in today’s society is beautifully depicted. The mention of the real warriors who protect the nation’s pride shows the respect and admiration for those people. Highlighting advancements in sports and emphasising on individual growth and achievement in various fields depicts the changing landscape of opportunities and the importance of individual effort and dedication. The idea of contributing positively to society and cherishing one’s heritage is emphasised.❤️

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107.Friendship - Wine of life*

 

*Friendship - Wine of life*

I travel time back to my school days 

Where I expressed friendship in many ways

Friendship day gives me goosebump

Friendship bands as base to include whom to dump

I used to make bands handmade one

The higher the heap of band ,more the fun

Being in all girls school , a boy wishing me on this day was a big deal 

Friendship equals love was then the feel

 

With time, band reduced as the bandwidth 

Only friend that remained was my mom till her last breath 

With time we all happen to change

Only thing permanent is change 

New people come into life

With a pre-determined shelf life 

I remember I was in tears during my school send off 

As if it's the world's end off

Those scrapbook with all love 

Letter writing with admiration to show 

Now technology is advanced just to say 

We are just a msg away 

But then we tend to not have any matter 

The innocence is thinned up as we got fatter 

My forever friend is my poetry 

It kind of makes me free 

Every time I write it's like a old wine in new bottle 

My best friend is my poems which makes me calm and subtle. 

Finding a friend makes me glee

Self love is to find my friend within me!!!

©️✍️Priyanka Kamath

5 August 2024 

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Magnificent ❤️

The journey from the innocence of handmade bands and expressions of love in school days to the solitude of relying on poetry as a forever friend paints a picture of personal growth with changing times. The exploration of technology has affected the nature of connections and relationships that sometimes overshadow the simplicity and honesty of traditional forms of friendship. By emphasizing the importance of developing friendship with oneself, it highlights the idea that true companionship begins from within and expands outward. It is a reminder of the beauty and strength that can be found in solitude, self-reflection, and the pursuit of creative expression as a means of finding connection and fulfillment in life❤️

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105.Path of love

 *Path of love*

To reach love, universe gave me roadmap 

With each step, clear route I could tap 

In this journey I was tempted to take short cut 

These paths would lead me to toxic pit 

I met a few in this way of rope 

Who seem to be only ray of hope 

I smiled , I believed and thanked universe for finding them for me 

But I entangled the rope in such a way that I was no more free 

Love slowly turned into addiction 

I was hurting my heart with each friction.

My string of happiness was with them in this fake show.

Why did universe show me this path of love ? 

Felt vulnerable when I received no more care 

To whom shall I now on share ? 

I was tempted to check phone each time 

Universe gave me a message that I will be eventually fine 

I lost my self by choosing path of love 

Why was I even ok to be treated less and low ? 

After sometime as withered old petals were cleared from road 

I started walking the same path of love broad 

The toxicity approached me to come on 

I trust universe path and decided to move on

The same me who was too naive pack

Now has no Temptation to have him back 

I learnt it's best to keep moving in the path of love 

True love is as pure as the white dove 

On the way short cuts do come 

But these are just temporary fun 

Listen to the universe,the path it lay

If something is not meant it will go away

With time we no more crave for the thing that once meant the most 

Find yourself today if your way is lost 

You will be okay the supreme power is with you at core 

Believe in yourself a little more !!!

©️✍️ Priyanka Kamath 

30 July 2024

Review 

Marvellous❤️

Love can indeed be a complicated and sometimes difficult path, filled with both joy and pain. It is important to recognize the difference between true love and toxic situations. Recognizing and understanding your own worth and power can help you get through tough times and make informed choices. Beautifully conveys the message that self-love and self-respect are essential components of any healthy relationship. By believing in yourself and staying true to your values, you can find the strength to overcome obstacles and follow the path that leads to real and lasting love❤️

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Also included this poem in a Anthology named path of life 

103 .Birthday

 I turned 33 on 7th of this month. Two years back I was in mangalore with my mom. And last year was my first one without her. So I decided to do something special for me this time. I had checked reels on few freebies for the birthday girl. Like a kayaking offered in ignite waters, free donut when purchased a beverage etc. It was a Sunday and both of us had a holiday so he planned a fancy lunch for me . I couldn't stay back midnight as was sleepy. So the very next day as I open my message I see a beautiful gift from Sky. He had got two big cakes in his place with my name written on it. When I checked with him how would he complete this cake , he mentioned that he would give away to orphanage for children. I was moved by this gesture. I had prepared bread omelette for breakfast. Before that had freshend up and offered my prayers to God. I shouldn't have booked a morning slot for the water paddling. As the weather in Dubai is too heated up . Also I was trying to kayak in individual boat for the first time. In April we had a team event where in Hatta I have done donut rowing which means it is less effort kayaking where we could enjoy rowing with team. Here there was chances of the light weighted boat to submerge in water so I was asked in advance if I knew to swim and also opted for a life jacket. I had worn jeans and a kurtham Although carried swimming suit too but I didn't anticipate the water to come over me. To be honest I did row but it wasn't a magical experience considering the humidity was too much and evenings would be cooler. Then we went home to change and relax a bit at home. It was afternoon already and we went to city centre maeisuem which is near to my place to have a good lunch. First I happen to visit the freebies list available in the store to grab them. Out of these ,I managed to grab a freebie in Tim Horton.I purchased a lavender cooler beverage ( Cost is 19 AEd ,since I had few points ,I was asked to pay only 16. With this I got a free donut. I chose KitKat one . It actually costed 8. But since was free so enjoyed it. By the way kayaking was also a part of Freebie for me. I would have regretted if I had to pay 75 AEd since it was not that worth. We went to Gazebo. We had a Zomato coupen for 30 percent off provided we make a minimum bill of 100 AEd. So after crafting my homework carefully we ordered chicken biryani and curry with butter rotis. The bill came up to 77 which represents my birthday too..We went to carefour to get weekly groceries. Next day I had office and Apoleena took me out for lunch in More.we had Thai green chicken with rice and in desert took a chocolate ice cream. Mara had also come to meet team so distributed chocolate as well to my former team. Thank for for a beautiful day!

She then reached out to me saying that she can disconnect with him if that hurts me .so I told her that I can't devote time to listen to her and advise all the time . So let her chill ,enjoy his care , attention,love.. after all all he needed was her. May be I was trying to hold him like a sand . I was making sure I don't give him stress by being too clingy with my sad stories. But he loves the toxicity and his energy definitely matches with her so he chose her over me and said he only needs her. 

Well, the next day when I messaged he was trying to be as restricted as possible.. like if I say how are you .his response is how are you . If I say I am fine, he says ok..it's not the way he responded to me usually and then when I ask why he changed,he says all is in my mind. 

I agree I am possessive. But even after understanding that showing me off the love towards her in group was too much. I felt all was done just to get a reaction out of me also during the time I was upset here. She is right that I have never understood either him or her. I am a mean selfish lady .

Irrespective of his reaction to my newsletter comment in group I am continuing to do that because I need him although all he need is only her. 

Let me come back to my birthday. Next day I had office and Apoleena took me out for lunch in More.we had Thai green chicken with rice and in desert took a chocolate ice cream. 

Mara had also come to meet team so distributed chocolate as well to my former team. 

If sky reads my email fully , he may find me too insecure. But it's my feelings. I own them. He is good to communicate.he is sweet but too much sweetness is not good for health. So his weekly communication would be enough for me to sustain the entire week. Let him have his share of happiness with his only one. Afterall she is my sister and if she is been treated as a princess then she deserves it .

I am already a queen so i let my princess enjoy this' phase with my prince ( her prince ) !!!

Next Friday will send across my third newsletter.turned 33 on 7th of this month. Two years back I was in mangalore with my mom. And last year was my first one without her. So I decided to do something special for me this time. I had checked reels on few freebies for the birthday girl. Like a kayaking offered in ignite waters, free donut when purchased a beverage etc. It was a Sunday and both of us had a holiday so he planned a fancy lunch for me . I couldn't stay back midnight as was sleepy. So the very next day as I open my message I see a beautiful gift from Sky. He had got two big cakes in his place with my name written on it. When I checked with him how would he complete this cake , he mentioned that he would give away to orphanage for children. I was moved by this gesture. I had prepared bread omelette for breakfast. Before that had freshend up and offered my prayers to God. I shouldn't have booked a morning slot for the water paddling. As the weather in Dubai is too heated up . Also I was trying to kayak in individual boat for the first time. In April we had a team event where in Hatta Iturned 33 on 7th of this month. Two years back I was in mangalore with my mom. And last year was my first one without her. So I decided to do something special for me this time. I had checked reels on few freebies for the birthday girl. Like a kayaking offered in ignite waters, free donut when purchased a beverage etc. It was a Sunday and both of us had a holiday so he planned a fancy lunch for me . I couldn't stay back midnight as was sleepy. So the very next day as I open my message I see a beautiful gift from Sky. He had got two big cakes in his place with my name written on it. When I checked with him how would he complete this cake , he mentioned that he would give away to orphanage for children. I was moved by this gesture. I had prepared bread omelette for breakfast. Before that had freshend up and offered my prayers to God. I shouldn't have booked a morning slot for the water paddling. As the weather in Dubai is too heated up . Also I was trying to kayak in individual boat for the first time. In April we had a team event where in Hatta I have done donut rowing which means it is less effort kayaking where we could enjoy rowing with team. Here there was chances of the light weighted boat to submerge in water so I was asked in advance if I knew to swim and also opted for a life jacket. I had worn jeans and a kurtham Although carried swimming suit too but I didn't anticipate the water to come over me. To be honest I did row but it wasn't a magical experience considering the humidity was too much and evenings would be cooler. Then we went home to change and relax a bit at home. It was afternoon already and we went to city centre maeisuem which is near to my place to have a good lunch. First I happen to visit the freebies list available in the store to grab them. Out of these ,I managed to grab a freebie in Tim Horton.I purchased a lavender cooler beverage ( Cost is 19 AEd ,since I had few points ,I was asked to pay only 16. With this I got a free donut. I chose KitKat one . It actually costed 8. But since was free so enjoyed it. By the way kayaking was also a part of Freebie for me. I would have regretted if I had to pay 75 AEd since it was not that worth. We went to Gazebo. We had a Zomato coupen for 30 percent off provided we make a minimum bill of 100 AEd. So after crafting my homework carefully we ordered chicken biryani and curry with butter rotis. The bill came up to 77 which represents my birthday too..We went to carefour to get weekly groceries. And evening I prepared for the next day and created a new group Awesome Threesome with my cousin and sky which sadly came to a hault yesterday. I really like sky around me .He is my happy space. I even sext with him and I can discuss anything and everything to him. However this is the second time that is happening that I felt left out. This time I didn't manipulate. I just felt to leave the group . When he sexted me the last time it was a abusive one and a rough sex where we used the term Raand which means a prostitute. Next day even he asked if we went overboard. But then it was something I extremely loved so I didn't think  deep because I enjoyed to the core. I felt we both needed each other. But he just needed her. It's me who was needy for his love and attention . Every time I reach out to him and he doesn't even attempt to get back to me. He mentioned to me earlier that my cousin is not like me. Means she would keep her respect intact and not give herself to him so easily. In other way the Raand is correctly justifying me. That I was ready to give him even even I am in wedlock .In the group I had mentioned to him that please keep tuning for my birthday newsletter. But he didn't respond. However if she posted anything he would be proactive. I ignored and tried to communicate with him on things we relate. But then she was not involving in these conversation rather was texting him separately. When I would write anything in group ,on her behalf he would respond. She wouldn't even get back to me . Everyone has their opinion and when I shared mine, the response was a bit rude. Even if she was upset she didn't connect to me rather discussed about me to him. Earlier too I had seen that she has hid her DP , she isn't communicating to me and this strong response was hard on me. Moreover sky kept supporting her. Previous to last evening I was upset and I didn't want to share the negativity to others so I told sky that he is my happy space and the issue is regarding my dad so I will handle it. I logged off early. The next day ( yesterday) I see there isn't the regular good morning msg. Neither my cousin checked with me if I was ok. And I see intense msg from sky in the group stating that he needs only her .he stresses on the word 'only you '! Either he can have this close ended communication to her in person that showing his love in the group. When I sext him ,it's because I feel for him. Neither him nor me are toys here. So he should have been sensible with his actions. And she is also reciprocating well and then telling me that she can't control his actions. The group was namesake. Anyways the real conversation was one to one . And I was feeling hurt and ignored by both ends.

She then reached out to me saying that she can disconnect with him if that hurts me .so I told her that I can't devote time to listen to her and advise all the time . So let her chill ,enjoy his care , attention,love.. after all all he needed was her. May be I was trying to hold him like a sand . I was making sure I don't give him stress by being too clingy with my sad stories. But he loves the toxicity and his energy definitely matches with her so he chose her over me and said he only needs her. 

Well, the next day when I messaged he was trying to be as restricted as possible.. like if I say how are you .his response is how are you . If I say I am fine, he says ok..it's not the way he responded to me usually and then when I ask why he changed,he says all is in my mind. 

I agree I am possessive. But even after understanding that showing me off the love towards her in group was too much. I felt all was done just to get a reaction out of me also during the time I was upset here. She is right that I have never understood either him or her. I am a mean selfish lady .

Irrespective of his reaction to my newsletter comment in group I am continuing to do that because I need him although all he need is only her. 

Let me come back to my birthday. Next day I had office and Apoleena took me out for lunch in More.we had Thai green chicken with rice and in desert took a chocolate ice cream. 

Mara had also come to meet team so distributed chocolate as well to my former team. 

If sky reads my email fully , he may find me too insecure. But it's my feelings. I own them.  He is good to communicate.he is sweet but too much sweetness is not good for health. So his weekly communication would be enough for me to sustain the entire week. Let him have his share of happiness with his only one. Afterall she is my sister and if she is been treated as a princess then she deserves it .

I am already a queen so i let my princess enjoy this' phase with my prince ( her prince ) !!!

Next Friday will send across my third newsletter. have done donut rowing which means it is less effort kayaking where we could enjoy rowing with team. Here there was chances of the light weighted boat to submerge in water so I was asked in advance if I knew to swim and also opted for a life jacket. I had worn jeans and a kurtham Although carried swimming suit too but I didn't anticipate the water to come over me. To be honest I did row but it wasn't a magical experience considering the humidity was too much and evenings would be cooler. Then we went home to change and relax a bit at home. It was afternoon already and we went to city centre maeisuem which is near to my place to have a good lunch. First I happen to visit the freebies list available in the store to grab them. Out of these ,I managed to grab a freebie in Tim Horton.I purchased a lavender cooler beverage ( Cost is 19 AEd ,since I had few points ,I was asked to pay only 16. With this I got a free donut. I chose KitKat one . It actually costed 8. But since was free so enjoyed it. By the way kayaking was also a part of Freebie for me. I would have regretted if I had to pay 75 AEd since it was not that worth. We went to Gazebo. We had a Zomato coupen for 30 percent off provided we make a minimum bill of 100 AEd. So after crafting my homework carefully we ordered chicken biryani and curry with butter rotis. The bill came up to 77 which represents my birthday too..We went to carefour to get weekly groceries. And evening I prepared for the next day and created a new group Awesome Threesome with my cousin and sky which sadly came to a hault yesterday. I really like sky around me .He is my happy space. I even sext with him and I can discuss anything and everything to him. However this is the second time that is happening that I felt left out. This time I didn't manipulate. I just felt to leave the group . When he sexted me the last time it was a abusive one and a rough sex where we used the term Raand which means a prostitute. Next day even he asked if we went overboard. But then it was something I extremely loved so I didn't think  deep because I enjoyed to the core. I felt we both needed each other. But he just needed her. It's me who was needy for his love and attention . Every time I reach out to him and he doesn't even attempt to get back to me. He mentioned to me earlier that my cousin is not like me. Means she would keep her respect intact and not give herself to him so easily. In other way the Raand is correctly justifying me. That I was ready to give him even even I am in wedlock .In the group I had mentioned to him that please keep tuning for my birthday newsletter. But he didn't respond. However if she posted anything he would be proactive. I ignored and tried to communicate with him on things we relate. But then she was not involving in these conversation rather was texting him separately. When I would write anything in group ,on her behalf he would respond. She wouldn't even get back to me . Everyone has their opinion and when I shared mine, the response was a bit rude. Even if she was upset she didn't connect to me rather discussed about me to him. Earlier too I had seen that she has hid her DP , she isn't communicating to me and this strong response was hard on me. Moreover sky kept supporting her. Previous to last evening I was upset and I didn't want to share the negativity to others so I told sky that he is my happy space and the issue is regarding my dad so I will handle it. I logged off early. The next day ( yesterday) I see there isn't the regular good morning msg. Neither my cousin checked with me if I was ok. And I see intense msg from sky in the group stating that he needs only her .he stresses on the word 'only you '! Either he can have this close ended communication to her in person that showing his love in the group. When I sext him ,it's because I feel for him. Neither him nor me are toys here. So he should have been sensible with his actions. And she is also reciprocating well and then telling me that she can't control his actions. The group was namesake. Anyways the real conversation was one to one . And I was feeling hurt and ignored by both ends.

She then reached out to me saying that she can disconnect with him if that hurts me .so I told her that I can't devote time to listen to her and advise all the time . So let her chill ,enjoy his care , attention,love.. after all all he needed was her. May be I was trying to hold him like a sand . I was making sure I don't give him stress by being too clingy with my sad stories. But he loves the toxicity and his energy definitely matches with her so he chose her over me and said he only needs her. 

Well, the next day when I messaged he was trying to be as restricted as possible.. like if I say how are you .his response is how are you . If I say I am fine, he says ok..it's not the way he responded to me usually and then when I ask why he changed,he says all is in my mind. 

I agree I am possessive. But even after understanding that showing me off the love towards her in group was too much. I felt all was done just to get a reaction out of me also during the time I was upset here. She is right that I have never understood either him or her. I am a mean selfish lady .

Irrespective of his reaction to my newsletter comment in group I am continuing to do that because I need him although all he need is only her. 

Let me come back to my birthday. Next day I had office and Apoleena took me out for lunch in More.we had Thai green chicken with rice and in desert took a chocolate ice cream. 

Mara had also come to meet team so distributed chocolate as well to my former team. 

If sky reads my email fully , he may find me too insecure. But it's my feelings. I own them.  He is good to communicate.he is sweet but too much sweetness is not good for health. So his weekly communication would be enough for me to sustain the entire week. Let him have his share of happiness with his only one. Afterall she is my sister and if she is been treated as a princess then she deserves it .

I am already a queen so i let my princess enjoy this' phase with my prince ( her prince ) !!!

Next Friday will send across my third newsletter.